i'm making me some lemonade

I cant catch a break, originally uploaded by Little Thoughts.

I'm feeling good.
I leave for Portland tomorrow at 5pm.
See you at the wedding, Suzie!

my favorite morning breakfast

i got hungry, originally uploaded by perfectbound.

I bribed my dad to make me breakfast and pack me a lunch for today. I just had to offer him two little pieces of candy. It was a pretty sweet deal, I must say. I had two slices of egg in toast for breakfast and a tuna sandwich, orange, and peach green tea for lunch. I love my dad and his amazing food.

I'm feeling a thousand times better about the tasks I need to get done for my credentials this semester. I don't know if I will pass or even finish everything, but it actually seems attainable and as far as I am concerned, it is in the hands of God. Not mine. He is the decided and His decision will be. I pray for peace as I continue to forge my path.

the Man handed my man to me

REMIX: The Black & White, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

This weekend reminded me of all the reasons that I fell in love with the man, who is Gregory Gerhardt Dengler. I had a wonderful time completing his errands, hanging out, worshipping, and thinking of new dance moves! Each day, I am more and more excited to spend time with him and to hear all he has to say. God has blessed me tremendously. Thank you!

the bestest part of waking up is Jesus in my cup

Time for coffee , originally uploaded by Eline Pullen.

_{"In the morning, O Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation. But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you."
[ Psalms 5: 3 & 11 ]}

brunch with Gregory's mother

Break time..., originally uploaded by bananagranola.

We had a birthday/birthday/birthday/mother's day brunch at IHOP today. It was really nice. I'm glad Christie was able to come up to celebrate! :)

_{"You have filled my heart with greater joy than when their grain and new wine abound. I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety."
[ Psalms 4: 7-8 ]}

He is my shield through it all

Wallflowers, originally uploaded by Chloe Marisa.

_{"But you are a shield around me, O Lord; you bestow glory on me and lift up my head. To the LORD I cry aloud, and he answers me."
[ Psalms 3: 3-4 ]}

I can't wait for this program to end.
It's ridiculous and impossible and I don't want to do it...
At all.

:(

birthday great, the cupcake too

the dreaded cupcake monster strikes again., originally uploaded by ::reflecting truth::.

I really enjoyed my birthday.

I'm twenty-three.

I'm happy.

Yay!!

when life gets rough, get silly

there silly., originally uploaded by becaboo.

"...his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers." -- Psalms 1: 2-3

Why, why are You still here with me?
Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truth
I don't deserve You

But I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just never saw how You could cherish me
'Cause You're a God who has all things
And still You want me

And I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been

I need You to love me
I need You to love me

I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me

I need You to...

_{[ "I Need You To Love Me" -- BarlowGirl ]}

What a great time to recommit...


Two minutes until my birthday!! :D

my life, consumed by deadlines

Mandi and the big sunglasses!, originally uploaded by sabine's fotos.

To be completely honest with myself, this year has not been a year of enlightenment for me. I've fallen away from all of the best things. I don't pray as much. I don't read my Bible. I don't commune with my Christian friends. And I find it extremely difficult to even make it to service on Sundays (often, I end up listening to podcasts). It saddens me. When I ended up going to church by myself on Sunday, I realized that I needed to do something and writing about it on here was the first thing I could think of. I know that my loved ones read this and can help me be stronger. So that's what I'm asking for... encouragement and support.

The reason my walk has faltered so much is due to the course load and stress of this accelerated program. I was beyond stoked when my photo project ended because I didn't have to worry about it anymore... as you can see, my blogs have become more and more pointless... I suppose there are worse things then that (see above), but it was a part of my routine and a part of me that I enjoyed and a part that allowed me to express my faith. Without the time to express my faith in the ways I have become accustomed, I just stopped.

Does anyone have ideas for me? How can I get plugged back into the source while maintaining the schedule that I only have to keep up for another two months? I'm going to go to church EVERY week, whether or not I have too much work, so I'm confident about that... But I need a daily thing. Something that will either allow me to get filled or pour out. I need God. Can you help?

news is attacking close to home

day 122 - newspaper pirate !, originally uploaded by Amadika.

The Koala personals were more than offensive today and they attacked some of my very favorite ladies. My heart goes out to them and the person(s) that wrote it. I pray that this will only make ADX stronger and I hope this person(s) finds the confidence to face issues head on or to mature and cease such slanderous and degrading activities. *sigh*

ADX or die!

have a very happy mother's day

tulips, originally uploaded by perfectbound.

I LOVE YOU, MOM!!

:)

even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i will fear no evil

Tulip from my garden, originally uploaded by Craft & Creativity.

I will fear no evil!

The Lord is my Shepherd, I'll walk with Him always
He leads me by still waters, I'll walk with Him always
Always, always, I'll walk with Him always
Always, always, I'll walk with Him
Always

Psalms 23

carbs are good.. carbs are great

Soba fusilli, originally uploaded by bananagranola.

I bought a cook book today... All about cooking pasta dishes.

I'm very excited.

Greg is too.

:)

the day after cinco de mayo

Sex Ed for Dummies..., originally uploaded by SerialCoder.

The day after Cinco de Mayo is the National Day to Prevent Teen Pregnancy and the month of May is Teen Pregnancy Prevention day. I meant to write about it yesterday but completely forgot. Sorry about that!

From an article on the Secret Life website:
"One great way to think about it is to imagine certain situations and decide what you would do in the moment. Let’s take an example that’s familiar to all Secret Life fans:

What if you were hanging out, and making out, with a guy who you thought was kind of cute and kind of sexy, who had a reputation as a ladies man but who seemed really interested in just you. You feel attracted to him and you can tell he’s attracted to you too, and even though you’ve never really spent time together before right now, one thing leads to another, and you start getting really intimate. You’re kinda of freaking out – so excited to be with this guy, so surprised at how easy it is to be with him – so happy and electric and nervous that you’ll do or say the wrong thing. He’s clearly not a virgin but you are and when he makes a move to have sex with you, do you:
A) Get lost in the heat of the moment and led him take the lead – you never imagined your first time would be like this!
B) Pull back for a minute and insist he use a condom.
C) Keep it all above the waist – it’s the first time you’ve ever even hooked up with this guy! Even if he is “the one” he doesn’t need to be the one right now.
D) Make an excuse why you have to leave – curfew or your friends are waiting for you or you have a stomach ache – but promise you’ll call or text him tomorrow and make plans for a real date.

It’s pretty obvious that Amy went with something like option “A” on that fateful night at band camp. It’s also quite likely that she never really thought about it beforehand – what she would say or do in a moment like that. But you can do it differently – take some time to think about what sex and pregnancy would mean in your life and how it would change things for you. Decide what you would do BEFORE the moment arrives – it’s a lot easier to think clearly that way. If you’re going to have sex make sure you use protection. That means figuring it out ahead of time – what kind, where will you get it, how does it work, etc. Or if you don’t want to have sex yet – which is really the only foolproof way of avoiding pregnancy – what will you say when the time comes.

Teen pregnancy is a really big deal. It takes two people to get pregnant but only one to prevent it. You can be that one. Have you thought about it? Tell us in the comments!

For more scenarios like the one above and more choices about what to do in the moment, check out StayTeen’s National Day Quiz!"

very best kind of decorations

Domsai, originally uploaded by Sencha Design.

"Matteo Cibic's desk tamagotchi, an anthropomorphic planter, is an altogether different creation from his contribution to the "Love Design" exhibition at last month's Design Week in Milan. Cibic describes his space-agey little tabletop toys as tamagotchis with regards to the egg-shaped handheld digital creatures that, along with Giga Pets and Nano Pets, became a major gadget trend in the mid '90s. Unlike their digital precursors however, Domsais are far less likely to perish from lack of constant vigilance."

How COOL is this?!

I love it, I want it, but I'd settle for something similar to it.


OH!! And I got placed in a fifth grade class at Zamarano Elementary.

:D

do you celebrate this holiday?

Day 125/365 "Cinco De Mayo", originally uploaded by Wellstone.

I was BURNT OUT from classes today, but still managed to join Greg, Krystina, and Michelle at Olde Town for some Cinco De Mayo/Greg's-Extended-Birthday fun!! We wore fake mustaches, bought silly things (Greg bought a mexican fighter mask), and had a fabulous dinner. Good atmosphere, good company, good times!!

be careful with what you begin

245, originally uploaded by nolando.

Animal Crossing is addictive. Period.

Just like the Sims.

Maybe worse...


I haven't decided.


p.s. I'm blonde again! :D

it's the snack that smiles back...

The snack that smiles back..., originally uploaded by becaboo.

Greg's birthday was today.

Yaaaay birth!!


We fished all day...
on Animal Crossing. :D

proverbs three: five through six

Luke's tattoo., originally uploaded by becaboo.

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight."

have a great night, ADX girls!!!

Ceremony Decorations, originally uploaded by zzilch.

I made some origami flowers out of Starburst wrappers today. They're awesome and sitting in my car's vase now. Hoorah!

Saw Big today... I missed you, Big.
I love you so much!!

Now, I'm off to go dancing with Greg for his birthday.

:)