i'm living the unexamined life

091031-Cedar01, originally uploaded by DanielleQ.

So this weekend, my church is participating in a fast, from food or anything else that by abstaining would bring you closer to God. I am giving up television (yes, that includes episodes or clips from the internet) and music. Now, music is not bad to me at all, but in order to hear God, I want to remain in silence as often as I can, thus no music.

I am always thinking and today wasn't any different, but for some reason it felt more important, more significant. I have down lately (as you know) and the past few weeks I've been sick and run-down. It could be that I feel so broken or just because I'm so emotional as of late, but either way, I have thought of a few topics that I would like to blog about this week:

a dependency on technology
insecure & out of synch: my plan?
in need of another: am i weak?
motherhood: selfless and selfish
career woman vs. mother: may i?
[the last two may be combined]

They are just beginnings of thoughts right now and since it is a holiday on wednesday, I should have plenty of time to mull over the things I want to say and how I want to say them. I am just going to try to allow God to stir in me and work things out inside of me. I have much to overcome and I am unable to bear the burden alone alone any longer. God, please, overwhelm me.


side note: Mita's engaged, Stang is preggers, and my cousin, Matt, just proposed to his long-time girlfriend.

change & growth opportunities

BabyHat-Grow-Cedar, originally uploaded by DanielleQ.

Wow.
There are a lot of life-changes happening for those around me. My cousin just got engaged, friends are planning weddings, and even some pregnancies. It's exciting, encouraging, and a bit disheartening. I am growing... I hope... I just pray that my hopes and desires are from God and will come to be in God's timing. In the meantime, I need to find something I can fight for. Direct my path, God.

i was too busy editing photos

No Photos, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

I remembered to get the blog up for the day prior but not the present day. Oops. I didn't do much. Edited photos, hung out with mom, and relaxed all night. All in all, it was a good day. :]

my verona, my sweetest friend

Tangled Web, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

I spent my afternoon with this pretty lady.
Didn't even realize that my blog was ignored.
Oops!

the girl is absolutely wonderful

Laura, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

I am so thankful that we met.
I'm so blessed to be brought together when we were.
She has eased my heart in many ways.
This is my honoring of her.
Thanks.

p.s. It's Sesame Street's birthday. Happy 40th! :)

so much love for little seester

[262/366] Framed Artwork, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

I love my Lil Sis.
That's all I care to share with you all today.
My Lil is amazing and I love her.

:)


Miss you, Lil.

i am just really... so very tired

paranoid (351/365), originally uploaded by Katherine Elizabeth.

I now have a raspy sick voice.
I'm hoping to get well soon.
Heh.

9 o'clock is time for breakfast

breakfast time, originally uploaded by marla_sea.

I totally love daylight savings time!!

I woke up earlier than my alarm and felt totally rested!
Had breakfast at 9... a steak sandwich... told you we made up.
And I left for school, to be late as usual... LoL.

The only thing I have to complain about is this HORRENDOUS cough, which is earsplitting and throat-scarring! I'm eager to be well.

sickness has brought me down

I've been tagged! 16 random things about me., originally uploaded by naughtonlucy.

I felt dead all day and just didn't notice that I never stopped to blog. I wasn't able to worship with Frippleville, due to the sickness. However, I got a big homework assignment done and really enjoyed my extra hour of sleep. LoL. Even though I thought I was late when I woke up. I had a great night out watching movies on Halloween and spent most of my Sunday watching tv, because it was the only thing I had enough energy to do.

Btw, I have reconciled with meat... Mmmm....

have a very happy halloween, ghouls an' boils

he's a halloween cat and he knows it!, originally uploaded by Hot_Boxer.

And happy birthday to my mommy!

:D

lullabies just cannot soothe me

lullabies, originally uploaded by Chrissie White.

I feel horrible today.
Missed two classes.
I hate feeling so sick...

:(

i am not feeling at all well

Sick Day, originally uploaded by ex.libris.

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

Take care of me.

:(

an assortment of teals & greens

mood board: a fall wedding, originally uploaded by Creature Comforts.

Winter always treats me well.
I love the crispness in the air right now.
It feels like it did during Spring Break in Seattle.
I miss it really, so this was a nice change.

Went dancing tonight.
GREAT dances.
I hope to get out dancing again soon.


^blessings
waking w/o an alarm
doing fairly well on an unexpected exam
getting a decent grade on a bad paper
having time to dance
Cesar :)

joys of happy, smiling children

Flower Girl, originally uploaded by chelsiefrancescowedding.

I saw Lily today... Lily, Maia, Runi, and Miguel.
I visited before heading over to community group.
It was so nice to see the girls so grown up!
I've really missed that family.


^blessings
sleeping in
getting to work early
lunch with Dana
visiting the Steen family
GAME NIGHT!!

piggy and gir in bento form

Invader Zim Piggy and GIR bento, originally uploaded by kickintheheadcomic.

I have always been told not to play with my food, but I can't say that I won't be tempted to try this with the Brussels sprouts that my dad just purchased today. Mmm... Brussels sprouts (did you know that that is how you spell it?! I didn't. Weird).

Today was stressful.
I'm not quite sure how I feel about it at all.
I'm going to do my best to get a bit more work done tonight and tomorrow, so I can pull out of this stressful load that has been building up. I done with the hardest parts, so I just need to keep going. *sigh*


^blessings
skipping classes
starbucks oatmeal
finishing what i set out to do
carolers rehearsal
gleeeeeee!!

the last day of carefree classes

Solomon and Kait 5450, originally uploaded by ohtoberich.

More dancing.
Good times.

i wanna dance, dance, dance

Jesse and Lydia, originally uploaded by ohtoberich.

Classes start today.

going to be dancing the blues

Chance, originally uploaded by ohtoberich.

Sorry if I don't update for a few days.
I am going to LA for the weekend.
Just nervous that I won't be able to get work done.
*sigh*


^blessings
getting a decent night of rest
feeling rejuvenated
talking about literature
finding books for my topic
going blues dancing... :]

if i could get my hands on it

The Time Machine, originally uploaded by orangedude_2004.

I would travel to a week from now,
read my paper for the thesis,
and come back to write this paper.

I have never changed an idea for a paper so many times!
I just hope this is a good one.

Laundry is going.
Movie is over.
Need to pack for the weekend.
I want the paper to be the furthest thing from my mind.
Merr.


^blessings
sleeping in
finishing projects
getting to work on time
finding a new lunch place
discovering my new fave movie!

inspire the world through art

chic for cheap: art inspired, originally uploaded by Creature Comforts.

I'm at my wit's end really.
My anxiety level was so high yesterday,
causing me to shut down completely.
I have a ton of things to get done
and instead of making even a little progress,
I completed half of a hw (early) and stopped.
Can you believe it?
Instead of doing any of the 3 or 4 late things,
I do the one thing that is not in a time crunch.
Oh, well.
I went to the library today
and got six different books for my paper.
That alone was a pretty big part of the process.
I have the short story I will use for comparison.
I have reread the section of the book I'm focused on.
I have books that pertain to my basic topic.
I do not have a anything typed.
I do not have a clear idea on how to get started.
I do not have a freaking thesis, nor can I think of one.
Why did I take a 600 course again?
In a topic that I am pretty unfamiliar with?
Oh, yeah, to be stretched.
I guess I should be careful with the number of stretches I do.
I hope I'm able to focus and get work done tomorrow night.
I need to get a lot done before the weekend.
I will be in LA for the Blues event.

In other news,
I got to talk to Candace today.
I am also feeling better in general,
but I am still tired
most of the time.


^blessings
my guilty pleasures
friend in the war zone
understanding stats
talking to Candace
friends at rehearsal! :D