my letter for december twentieth

Dana, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Dana,

I am so excited for you, little sister!! You are TWENTY-ONE today and I hope you have an amazing time in Vegas celebrating this milestone! I love you so much... your smile, your laugh, your mellifluous voice, your slammin' dance skills, and your genuinely upbeat attitude! You are an inspiration to me each and every day and I am so lucky to call you my sister. You are a strong, confident, twenty-one-year-old soon-to-be-engineer! Always remember to make time to rest and never stop writing and playing music. I love you so much, Doodle!

Your admiring older sister,
Lauren.

my letter for december nineteenth

Aquarium Fun, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Grandma,

Thank you for supporting me all of these years. Through CYT performances, Show Choir performances, college (in general), the credential program, and now, my CCT performances. It was so great to be able to look out into the audience and know that you're watching. I truly appreciate all that you have done for me over the years and it's always exciting to be able to share some of that with you as well. I look forward to celebrating Christmas with you this year, as we do every year. It wouldn't be the same without you. Thanks again.

I love you,
Lauren.

my letter for december eighteenth

{Week 33} Darkness, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Darkness,
Self doubt,
Uncertainty,
Insecurity,
Darkness,
Satan,

Leave me. Free me from your chains and allow me to choose the path I prefer. The path towards security. Brightly lit and reassuring. I want God to reign in my life. I want His peace and love to overwhelm me. Right now, it is difficult to see that path and I pray that I am able to find my way back to it. Please, loosen your grip on my life and allow me to find the comfort I so desperately need. I rebuke thee, Satan. Leave this place.

Thanks in advance,
Feeling helpless.

my letter for december seventeenth

Poison Ivy on the Attack., originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Mom,

Although it may not always seem so, you really do inspire me. I am glad that I learned from you to face things head on and to find new ways to approach things that I am uncomfortable with. I love you and I hope that I am able to take advantage of my time at home, once school and shows are through. Thank you for all that you have done for me and the things that you have taught me. I use them more than you could know. I am so lucky to have such caring parents, who love me even though I receive F's from time to time. ;)

Your doting daughter,
Lauren.

my letter for december sixteenth

To Write Love On Her Arms, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Flood Community,

Thank you for holding me up and pushing me past the many hardships that I have faced over the past four years or so. In no way has it been easy, but with the amazing friends I have made through the various Community Groups, I feel prepared to face the world. Thanks to all the people of PLNU, Flood College, and now, Tierrasanta, for sharing with me, caring about me, and continually making me smile. God has blessed me with this church, this community, these friends.

All my love,
Lauren.

my letter for december fifteenth

Lauren, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Lauren Grace,

You always know how to make me smile and I am so blessed to have you in my life. I truly don't know where I would be today if you weren't there to help me through high school and much of college. You shine a light in my life and comfort me, even when I am unknowing of the need. It was wonderful talking to you today and I hope it won't take another cheating accusation to make it happen. I miss you dearly. If you are really unable to stay here as long as was planned, I intend to make the very best of your time here. Until then, you are always in my heart and often in my thoughts.

I love you, Goob,
Lauren Frances.

my letter for december fourteenth

Omega House Unite!!, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Ladies of ADX,

I am so blessed to have you all in my life. I am awfully sad that I cannot see you more often, but tonight was such a blessing. I love seeing your shining faces and hearing the various stories about your lives. Congratulations to all the new Actives. Cherish your time as an active part of the sorority and make time for your sisters in Christ! Pearl, congratulations on the pregnancy. I cannot wait to see the plethora of photos online come June! I love all of you and hope to come to visit more often.

May God bless your Holidays,
Pebble Beach.

my letter for december thirteenth

tree, originally uploaded by voldеmort.

Dear Readers,

While preparing for this wonderful season, please remember the reason for all of it. Why do we celebrate, but to worship and honor Christ with our giving actions. I have the incredible fortune to be in the Traditions of Christmas this year and it is an amazing reminder each and every time I am up on that stage. I am near to crying whenever we do the Nativity at the end (although the smoke may play a part in that as well, heh). I couldn't imagine a better way for me to be spending my time!!

May you all have a Happy Christmas,
Lauren.

my letter for december twelfth

Best of Friends, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Candace,

My love. My sweet. Move back to San Diego... just until I finally get my butt up to Seattle! It's not the same without you here. And now that I'm finishing school, I'm going to have all of this extra time, with which I won't know what to do. Direct me. I neeeeeeeeed you! I do hope that you come down to see my show at least. I miss you and I want to have lunch or dinner with you sometime soon (before or after a show, maybe!). I hope life is treating you well. Always remember that I am here for you and more than happy to drive to see you, including New Years. Hang out with me on New Years!! ;)

Your long-lost bestie,
Lauren, Pebbs.

my letter for december eleventh

Hottie with a brella., originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Verona,

I cannot stand it... it has already been too long since I've last seen you! Come and visit me, please. Finals are almost over and you can come to see Traditions. We could grab something to eat afterwards! I want you to know that you will always be a rock in my life and I will be there for you, whenever you need me. I am so excited to see the person you become, to see the amazing things you will accomplish, to see God's love shine through you in new and amazing ways. I love you (if you come see my show... jk).

May God's love always direct your path,
LauLau.

my letter for december tenth

We Are Santa's Elves, originally uploaded by gregeichelberger.

Michelle and the rest of the Caroling Women,

Thank you for keeping me in your prayers. Although it may not be apparent by my constant studying/working/flailing about, I really am feeling at ease about the amount of work ahead of me. I am still unfinished with my paper, but I now know what I will be writing, so I can get started this weekend. What I have been doing, however, is get ahead on the rest of my work. I love every second that I get to spend with all of you. You are all incredible people, with an apparent love for Christ. Thank you for pouring into me and blessing my Christmas season!!

Love and blessings,
Lauren.

my letter for december ninth

Laura, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Laura,

I am so appreciative to have you in my life and it couldn't have happened at a better moment in my life! Thank you SO much for being there for me when you BARELY knew me... You have no idea how much you have really helped! I look forward to getting to know you and the rest of the group more, as the year progresses. I miss you all dearly and cannot wait to see you again. I guess the good news is that the show is opening and everything is going well. I hope you have a fantastic holiday season. May you feel God's presence and blessings in your life this season.

God bless,
Lauren.

my letter for december eighth

[54/366] Put a Little Love..., originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Big Sis,

I cannot express to you enough times how much I really miss you. When I look back to the times when I felt most safe and most grounded, I was with you. You have been an amazingly strong rock in my life and I couldn't have grown as much as I have without you by my side. Thank you for never giving up on me, for pushing me to be a better person, and for being my best friend. I love you and I hope to always remain in touch, even if we live in different houses, cities, or states.

All my love.

A sister helps, trusts, and loves,
Your Lil Peebs.

my letter for december seventh

You can push me out a window, originally uploaded by cortnie dee..

Cortnie,

I love that you are always so upbeat and positive. Your comedic ways are a comfort to many and I am so thankful that Angela (and CCT, I guess) brought you into my life. I look forward to performing with you and praising God through this Christmas celebration. May He be with you during this time crunch, helping you through any difficulties as they may arise. See you tonight!

Much love and many blessings,
Lauren.

my letter for december sixth

{1/52} -- 4: This is my life, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Dear God,

This is me attempting to get back to my roots. To find my way back to You, although it seems as though my body fights it more now than it ever did before. Thank you for leading me to worship with the kids this morning and allowing me to see their enthusiasm and trust in You, God. Help me to gain that back. Faith like a child.

Your stubborn and lost servant,
Lauren Frances.

my letter for december fifth

Dana and Dayna, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Dayna,

I spent a bit of my time today editing the pictures that I took on Thanksgiving. I just couldn't get enough of the photos I snapped of you. Your eyes and your smile light up a room and I am so appreciative to have you in my life. Your optimism and enthusiasm is contagious and I pray that God continues to work through you in order to bless others. Continue to seek Him and His path for your life. And know that I am always here to help you, with ASL projects or anything else you may need! I love you.

Your sister from another mister... and lady,
Lauren.

my letter for december fourth

I *heart* Carl, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Carl,

I am so glad that we are able to perform together in Traditions. It has truly been a blessing seeing you, chatting with you, and sneaking in a few dances here and there. Since our schedules are going to be so over-loaded soon, we might even have to start dancing backstage, between scenes. Otherwise, I may not be able to dance at all. LoL. Thank you for being such a good friend. I appreciate all the blessings you have given me!

Lindy hoppers for life,
Pebbles... erm, Lauren.

my letter for december third

Lady Madonna - teaser!, originally uploaded by cortnie dee..

Angela,

I am so glad that God has brought me to this place, surrounded by cheer and love, even when I find it difficult to see amongst the irritations. I love seeing your smiling face and feeling your welcoming embrace upon arrival. Too often I get caught up in the small nuisances of the day-to-day and I'm glad to have someone close by the keep me grounded and shed light on the many blessings around me. Thank you for all you do for me and those around you! Oh, and congrats on the newest update!! :D

Your fellow Caroler,
Lauren.

my letter for december second

Dad & Me at High School Graduation, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Dad,

You have been a great help to me this year, even though the most difficult obstacles. We haven't always see eye-to-eye, but as of late, I think we've become closer than we ever have been. Although it's always difficult to move back in with the parents after years away, the time spent at home has given me a second chance to reconnect with you. I love our conversations about Farmville, Science Fiction, and food. I love you, Dad.

Your loving daughter,
Lauren.

my letter for december first

{Week 23} Breakfast with my Lil, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Lil Sis,

I love you. I miss you. You mean so much to me and I'm sad that I never get to see you. I cannot explain to you how wonderful it was to receive all of your texts this evening. I hope you write again... and often! I hope you blog again, for that matter. I am so excited for your baptism, even though I couldn't be there? Where was it, by the way? I really hope you take advantage of my discount to see Traditions and I hope you are actually in town after Christmas, so I can see you. And talk to you. And share stories about my messed up life with you. Even that sounds fun when I think about the fact that I will be able to share with you again. I am so proud of all of your growth and the amazing light that I have seen shine through you. I know that you are going to do wonderful things and I would gladly be a part of your life again. Please, fight for our relationship. I won't stop.

I love you.

A sister helps, trusts, and loves,
Your Big.