don't talk to me... still morning

morning, originally uploaded by gumby*.

Soooooo tired.

We have a place to stay.
Taking a taxi into the city.
It's still way too early.
Gems to come later.

Now, go away!!

don't leave me on that jet plane

A Very Large Giraffe, originally uploaded by Sebastian Niedlich (Grabthar).

I'm taking off for Seattle tomorrow morning at 7:30am.
So, I must be awake at 4:30am.
For those who know me, this is no shocker...
I'M NOT A MORNING PERSON!
I'm not sure if I'm really looking forward to tomorrow.

We'll see.


Gems:
quality time with Big
tv mania
laundry day
eating leftovers
sleeping at Veronica's

no boys... i just wanna dance

{Week 8} I Just Wanna..., originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

If boys come near me, I'll tazer 'em... **TZZ**

I'm a JAZZ baby... Little jazz baby, that's me!!


Veronica, I'm jealous of you, girl! I want to get into a performance dance class again. I feel deprived of the performance world. Swing dancing is amazing but it's just not the same as moving to your own beat, your own rhythm. So if you see me swaying and leaping in the streets for no apparent reason, don't be surprised!


Gems:
sleeping in!!
white skirts
smoothies
car rides
selfies

la-la-la-la-la-life is wonderful

[52/366] Life is Dandy, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

in a field of yellow flowers
underneath the sun
bluest eyes that spark with lightning
boy with shoes undone
he is young, so full of hope
reveling in tiny dreams
filling up his arms with flowers
right for giving any queen

running to her, beaming bright
while cradling his prize
a flickering of yellow light
within his mother's eyes
she holds them to her heart
keeping them where they'll be safe
clasped within her very marrow
dandelions in a vase

she sees love where anyone else would see weeds
all hope is found, here is everything he needs

fathomless Your endless mercy
weight I could not lift
where do I fit in this puzzle?
what good are these gifts?
not a martyr or a saint
scarcely can I struggle through
all that I have ever wanted
was to give my best to You

Lord, search my heart
create in me something clean
...dandelions...
You see flowers in these weeds

gently lifting hands to heaven
softened by the sweetest hush
a Father sings over His children
loving them so very much
more than words could warrant
deeper than the darkest blue
more than sacrifice could merit
Lord, I give my heart to you

Lord, search my heart
create in me something clean
...dandelions...
You see flowers in these weeds

Lord, search my heart
create in me something clean
...dandelions...
You see flowers in these weeds

Gems:
finished hw
hilarious texts
puppy love
Starbucks
time with boy

you're just walking the line

[51/366] Walk the Line, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

So today was the last day of class before Spring Break for me. I went to two classes and got out around 3:15. I checked my phone on my way out of class and had a text from Jonny. I gave him a call and to my surprise, he was already at State. So I crossed the BAM bridge and walked along the sidewalk until I could see him walking in the distance. I snapped two shots and he pulled out his cell to text to me that he could see me. LoL.

It was a nice time to hang out and talk before running off yet again. We live some busy lives. I can hardly keep up with myself sometimes! So I'm off to bed. Getting up to take a shower and get some more homework done in the morning. I'm stoked... Can't you tell?!

Gems:
spring break
spring break sudoku
spring break Nicole
spring break Big
spring break surprises

wanna adopt 'em, not make 'em

Eat, drink, and be merry, originally uploaded by jwlphotography.

I love asian babies. I look forward to the day that I can care for children of my own. I would love to adopt as well. I have been encouraged to do so more and more over the past year or so. It was never something that entered my mind before, but now I think it's exactly what I would need to complete my family.

That being said, LOOK AT THE BABY ABOVE!! Soooooooo cute. For those that are shocked and disgusted by the explicit use of alcohol in this photo, the child has pomegranate juice spilled on her shirt, not wine. Look how happy that baby girl is. I'd steal her away if I could!
It's almost Spring Break, kiddos... Eat, drink responsibly, and be merry!!


Gems:
playing around on Flickr
reconciling with Brandy
hanging with Veronica
seeing Candace soon
Flood College tonight

by your eyes smitten: it shows

You lead, I follow., originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

I just can't wait to go dancing tonight. I've been distant. Off in thought far too much. I need more than grounding. I need to live in the moment. Not in the to-do's. Not in the could-be's. Not in the should-have's. So tonight is the test. I hope I'm able to remember.
I want to live each moment for what it is. Right then. I want to appreciate the time spent dancing. Not get caught up in the crowd. Not get caught up in the insufficient dance floor. Not get caught up in the missed dances. Not get caught up in my thoughts most of all.
As for now, in order to prepare for tonight, I will get dressed, get dolled up, and then get in the Word. God's calling me and I'm not going to ignore Him this time!!

Gems:
rides to school
Veronica's SF
worry-free day
perfect God time
tonight's dancing

sweet words flow from my lips

Sweet Lips......, originally uploaded by Hulalulatallulahoop.

"One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter."
(James Earl Jones)

"Discontent if the first step in the progress of a man or a nation."
(Oscar Wilde)

"Love can help us, love can break us,
Love can do things never done before.
Love is a feeling we find appealing,
Love is the thing that makes us soar."
(Michael Roberts)

I am excited about Spring Break and excited about my growth.
Lent was a real learning experience and I'm glad I did it.
Now, I just can't figure out how I'll ever watch TV again.
It seems so against my nature to do so!
I haven't watched it all day...
I will only watch random TV when another person turns it on.
As for my shows, I'll watch those for sure!!

Gems:
rest
babysitting
new photo projects
seeing my Big
silence

He's an awesome God & reigns

Easter Sunday: A living sacrifice, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

I don't follow directions.
They told us to stand during worship again...

side note: I don't like to be told how I should be worshipping.

However, for once, I didn't stay seated out of defiance, but for the sake of this drawing. When I feel so moved by the Spirit, I draw. I love it. I wish I were moved this greatly on a regular basis.


God is great!

Jesus on the Cross, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Gems:
FloodKids
family time at lunch
Easter Service at Flood
breaking Lent with Lifehouse
movies with Jonny

drained in the very best way

Day 40: Chocolate delicacy, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

The food was definitely too much for one. So I shared.
Jonny's going to be upset that I used this as my photo for the day (opposed to the great quality photos taken by others), but I'm okay with that because I need my photo before I go to sleep.

To sum it up: Today was amazing. Perfect


Gems:
my carpool pal
California Adventures
Bug's Life area!!
Club 33
vulnerability

paying tribute to my mommy

Day 39: Mr. Green chops..., originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Mr. Green chops, it dices, it slices... it cuts ya DEEP!

But most of all, it wakes me all warm and fuzzy knowing that my mom saw it and thought of me. It's my favorite shade of green and I was able to use it to cook dinner for the most beloved people!!


Gems:
the perfect pair
grocery shopping
green ceramic knife
apples to apples
beloved people

it's been a hard day's night

Day 38: Jesus take the wheel, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

I'm living too much for myself and by myself.
Renew me and guide me each step of the way, Lord!

And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray.

She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change!

So from now on tonight:


Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own

I'm letting go

So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on


Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on

From this road I'm on

Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me

Oh, why, oh
Gems:
almost Spring Break
stress-free classes
not getting marked down
Cafe Sevilla
Disneyland
Club 33

seek. find. accept. grow. give.

Day 37: Spring brings new life, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

I just pray for those trying to find the boldness to bring friends and family to Easter this Sunday. May you find the courage through God and open the possibilities of growth in your own life and theirs!

p.s. I want to conclude Lent with a viewing of the Passion of the Christ.
Whether after midnight Sunday or during the day Monday, that's what I hoping for. Anyone else want to join me?! I've never seen it and would love to share the experience, whether you've seen it before or not. :)


Gems:
actually blogging before midnight
immense community group love
transformation through worship
time with Lauren, my love
breakfast with Terry

thirty-two and a third times

Day 36: Flickr locked me out., originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

"In an effort to get people to look
into each other’s eyes more,
the government has decided to allot
each person exactly one hundred
and sixty-seven words, per day.

When the phone rings, I put it
to my ear without saying hello.
In the restaurant I point
at chicken noodle soup. I am
adjusting well to the new way.

Late at night, I call my long
distance lover and proudly say
I only used fifty-nine today.
I saved the rest for you.

When she doesn’t respond, I know
she’s used up all her words
so I slowly whisper I love you,
thirty-two and a third times.
After that, we just sit on the line
and listen to each other breathe."

- Jeffrey McDaniel

I should do this.



Gems:
turning in all of today's work
ace-ing the history midterm
having a full car for Henry's
dancing & shooting at the pub
grabbing a late bite at Lestat's

who wants to hit up a pub?

Day 35: Here's my flair., originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

I have been grumbling about the fact that St. Patrick's Day falls on Holy Week (last time that happened was in 1940). I then realized, although I don't want to celebrate the holiday now, I still really want to go to a brewery or a pub and get some good food! I don't remember the last time I've been to a brewery. Maybe I can convince Terry to go there for dinner tonight. Oh yeah, Terry's here from Colorado. I get to spend the afternoon with him. Hopefully I won't be out too late to do the homework I've been ignoring all weekend.

Gems:
my red shoe mosaic
an odd sense of clarity
fun week has begun!!
seeing Terrance
my salvation

and His love endures forever

Palm Sunday: Enjoying God's blessings, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

It may not be the most exciting photo, but at the risk of being redundant, I used yesterday's photo of the sunset and my C2:8 shirt for today's shot. Today was a great day and I am just in awe of God's great works.

Current questions to ponder:
What am I doing to thank and praise God?
Is it apparent that I am a follower of the living Christ in my words AND actions?
What can I do to grow more over this last week of Lent?


13 things:
Here's a random bit about myself...

1. I gag any time I bite into an onion.
2. With the exception of one day, I've probably said the F-word less than ten times.
3. I realize that I need a camera, but really don't mind the fact that I use my phone and computer for all of my daily shots.
4. When I ask most of my friends for opinions on choices I must make, they often don't answer with the excuse that I'm just going to do what I want anyways.
5. I have a mild fear of spiders, clowns, dolls, and falling.
6. I might be moving back in with the parentals in a year... just during my year of credential work.
7. I am constantly analyzing myself and the predicaments I find myself in.
8. I am often pained by the thought that I have let someone down... It's agonizing.
9. I have completely turned my life around since I began following Christ. I'm not perfect, but the change is significant!
10. I over-use smileys on the internet... :)
11. Diet coke is a regular part of my diet.
12. I love the color green and trees amaze me.
13. I'm so prone to overextend myself, I need to write in time to just stop and relax.

I wanna go!

Gems:
FloodKids worship
Solana Beach Presbyterian
epiphanies & revelations
Panera Bread antics
Lestat's Coffee House

please, take me the way i am

Day 34: Our Sunset, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Although my morning began with an awful testing experience, I got through it without really freaking out. Granted, I had no sleep last night, so I probably should have been freaking out, but I was alert, my mind receptive, and I expect good things. LoL.

Spent time at home by myself for a while. Spent some time with Candace. Chatted with the Goob... She is the cutest bride-to-be... Can't wait to see her this week (or Terry, for that matter)! But Jonny made my day...

Moothies. View of the Shoe Pavilion. Sunset on my face. Detour. Bread bowl & dried cranberries. Vons. "I love you" mug. Cookies & flat soda. No sleep. Home. Perfect.


Gems:
getting through testing
texts from my Big Sister
Brandy's kid sleepover
a wonderful coffee break
disneyland next weekend

just want to swing right 'round

Day 33: Slow night, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Went dancing.
Hardly any leads.
Makes for a slow night.

Still good.
:)


Gems:
sleeping in
lunch with Nicole
my mommy
dinner with Candace and Jonny
the blues

i'm afraid i just won't wake up

Day 32: Sleepy wants nap, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Bad day.
Horrible day.
Not-so-bad night.

I'll let you know when I'm ready to smile.

Gems:
paper finished
extra time to just relax
finally talking to the teacher
no ticket on my car
cleaning house

out, damn'd spot... out, i say!

31: That unclean feeling, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

I can't shake it.
I'm spread too thin.
Trying to live out the convictions of others.
I'm tired and stupid.
I hope she's ok.
I'm still sorry.

Tried to give a homeless woman a ride to a women's shelter. I led us the wrong way and ended up taking her back to where we had started. She wouldn't get out of my car for at least an hour.

Now back to the reflections that seem so meaningless right now.

Gems:
God's grace
brokenness (to be built up again)
Andrew as my co-leader
people that care
late night/early morning calls