10.03.2007
4.29.2007
4.20.2007
4.03.2007
upside down
I am currently lying on my back, exhausted, drained, and slowly losing consciousness. While doing this, I thought, "why not write a blog upside down?" So that is what I'm doing. I'm writing. I'm upside down. I'm writing upside down. I know that it's nothing profound or all too logical but it appeases me for the time being... Until I need to get up to use the restroom. In which case, I would no longer be upside down. I guess that time is now. So, farewell gorgeous readers.
Genesis 1:26
Genesis 1:26
4.01.2007
spring break
I am incredibly blessed with amazing housemates!! I just spent the past two days with two of my housemates, Lux and Chicago. We wanted to get away for a real Spring Break rather than sitting around and doing the homework that is always assigned to ruin the holiday. So, we set out Friday afternoon to Whittier and dropped our stuff at my Aunt Ellen's house before going down to the swing club, Memories. We all took the lessons. While Chicago took the intro class, Lux and I headed up to the second floor and learned the Shim Sham. That was probably my third lesson ever and I enjoyed the fact that we learned something that I wouldn't normally pick up from following!
The dancing was amazing and I definitely went a bit overboard, dancing nearly every song. I could probably last longer if I knew how to pace myself. Until then, I will continue to lie awake the night of dizzy and nauseous. The next morning we got ready, read our Bibles, ate breakfast, and drove up to LA.
We walked around the Fashion District and Lux got a few things before my Big Sis drove down and met us for lunch. Lunch sucked. The food was decent but the service was awful so, we left there pretty fed up with the Fashion District and drove up to Beverly Hills to go to the Beverly Center mall. I got my Banquet dress and enjoyed the fact that there was some Sanrio inspired store there that had Hello Kitty guitars.
After the mall, we drove down to Huntington Beach and met up with Kyle, a friend from swing dancing. The five of us drove down to the pier and ate at Ruby's. The food was good and the service was as well... finally. Dinner was definitely a highlight with random topics, awkward comments, and memorable quotes. This was the perfect way to end the trip of the semester and I couldn't imagine the trip any other way!
Thanks to everyone who was a part of the trip, the fun, the drive, the exhaustion, the shopping, the laughs, the awkwardness, the dancing, the jokes, and the relationships created.
I love you guys.
You're amazing.
The dancing was amazing and I definitely went a bit overboard, dancing nearly every song. I could probably last longer if I knew how to pace myself. Until then, I will continue to lie awake the night of dizzy and nauseous. The next morning we got ready, read our Bibles, ate breakfast, and drove up to LA.
We walked around the Fashion District and Lux got a few things before my Big Sis drove down and met us for lunch. Lunch sucked. The food was decent but the service was awful so, we left there pretty fed up with the Fashion District and drove up to Beverly Hills to go to the Beverly Center mall. I got my Banquet dress and enjoyed the fact that there was some Sanrio inspired store there that had Hello Kitty guitars.
After the mall, we drove down to Huntington Beach and met up with Kyle, a friend from swing dancing. The five of us drove down to the pier and ate at Ruby's. The food was good and the service was as well... finally. Dinner was definitely a highlight with random topics, awkward comments, and memorable quotes. This was the perfect way to end the trip of the semester and I couldn't imagine the trip any other way!
Thanks to everyone who was a part of the trip, the fun, the drive, the exhaustion, the shopping, the laughs, the awkwardness, the dancing, the jokes, and the relationships created.
I love you guys.
You're amazing.
3.17.2007
oh Jesus, take the wheel
I'm still in a state of disbelief. Last night, I went up to Irvine to dance at the Atomic Ballroom. I was extremely excited to go and confident that driving wouldn't be a problem. Upon getting there, I danced up a storm and didn't even leave until 2:30am. At that point, I was hungry but I was wide awake. When Kyle asked me if I was sure that I was good to drive home, I had no reason to say "no."
So, I got in my car and began to drive, got on the 405 and looked for the 5... Not realizing that they just merge, I call to confirm I was headed in the right direction and kept driving. Soon after that, I started to shiver and turned the heater on low, pointed away from my face... Bad idea. My eyes suddenly got heavy and I could hardly pay attention to the road.
What is my solution? Should I pull over to the side of the road? No, I didn't want to fall asleep on the side of the road and never wake up. Should I stop somewhere to get some caffeine? I would have if I had seen anything open at 2:30 - 3 in the morning!
So, I tried holding one eye open as I drove, which worked for the most part. Depth perception was shot, but otherwise I was able to drive smoothly. It wasn't until I began to shut my eyes without realizing it that it became a problem. Not realizing they were closed, I opened my eyes suddenly and swerved to miss the median I was about 3 inches from. That woke me up, for the time being.
By the end of the drive, I can honestly say that I don't remember half of it... I know God had His hand on me last night and He was the one to keep me safe. Swerving across lanes and nearly crashing 5 times tells me that I am not going to drive anywhere alone unless I have somewhere to stay the night, so I can drive down in the morning.
I was stupid. God was incredibly merciful. I'm forever grateful!
So, I got in my car and began to drive, got on the 405 and looked for the 5... Not realizing that they just merge, I call to confirm I was headed in the right direction and kept driving. Soon after that, I started to shiver and turned the heater on low, pointed away from my face... Bad idea. My eyes suddenly got heavy and I could hardly pay attention to the road.
What is my solution? Should I pull over to the side of the road? No, I didn't want to fall asleep on the side of the road and never wake up. Should I stop somewhere to get some caffeine? I would have if I had seen anything open at 2:30 - 3 in the morning!
So, I tried holding one eye open as I drove, which worked for the most part. Depth perception was shot, but otherwise I was able to drive smoothly. It wasn't until I began to shut my eyes without realizing it that it became a problem. Not realizing they were closed, I opened my eyes suddenly and swerved to miss the median I was about 3 inches from. That woke me up, for the time being.
By the end of the drive, I can honestly say that I don't remember half of it... I know God had His hand on me last night and He was the one to keep me safe. Swerving across lanes and nearly crashing 5 times tells me that I am not going to drive anywhere alone unless I have somewhere to stay the night, so I can drive down in the morning.
I was stupid. God was incredibly merciful. I'm forever grateful!
2.09.2007
reasons for singleness (happy valentine's day)
Kelsey passed this on because she thought it was good... and she was right. I obviously didn't write it, but I think you should all read it. I love you all and I hope those who are single (or in a relationship, for that matter) will take all of this into consideration while awaiting Valentine's Day. Again, I did not write the following excerpt but I think it's great that anyone is taking the time to address a huge portion of the population... singleness. Read this either way: single, taken, guy, or girl. I love you all and I pray that God blesses your days ahead!!
♥ Lauren. Pebbles.
Reasons for Singleness.
Valentines day is almost upon us, and i know that there will be people who are bummed because they have a gift that they do not desire known as " singleness".
I want to simply give you some encouragment from the bible as to why you are single...and i hope that it will give you hope and strength to wait and not compromise.
The Bible gives us several reasons for singleness. I want to focus on this one today: Eph 5:33 So again I say, each man must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband."
The first reason that you are single is this: You have not found the one that you love.
Many guys come to me and tell me that they want a wife. My response is...no, you need to be in love first. But before you fall in love, you need to discover what true love really is. The bookof ephesians tells us that a man must love his wife as Christ loves the church...how will a man know how to love if he is not looking to Christ as his example?
Ladies, Sisters...i would encourage you to find a man that loves God...because only God can teach a man how to love you as he does. Jesus came and died to give us what our greatest need is, and continues to do what is best for us. Men, you will know when you are in love, when you are willing to do what is best for the woman regardless of what your needs are at that moment.
From a Christian perspective it is this: You are with your woman, and she is looking hot...you kiss her, and you get this funny feeling all over your body, but it is centralized in a certain area: Everything within you, and her looking at you tells you to go for it....BUT...you know that to take it any further would be damaging to her relationship with Christ, and Jesus tells us that it will lead to certain consequences down the road. What do you do? What have you done?
True love would say " Baby...ummmmm, yeah we gotta go. Everything within me wants this: But i know that this is not what you need, not now, but someday". True love always lays down what one wants, and gives what is best. This is what Jesus did. Men, we need to learn this. We need to stop putting pressure on a woman to say " NO", and allow her to be free with us knowing that we will protect their purity before Jesus. Ladies: Only a man that loves Jesus can do this. Be patient, he is out there.
Ladies, in the same way, the bible tells us that a wife must respect her husband. Many ladies come to me and tell me: " I love him"...yes, i am sure you do, but do you respect him???? Is he a respectable guy? Would you be able to share fully what he tells you, does for you, etc??? Or is there some shameful things that he has led you to do that you would not dare share? Do you respect him to the point where you can share openly with your parents everything about your relationship? Do you respect him? Does God respect him?
It is worth the wait for such a person. Men, fall in love first. Find a woman who will is in submission to Jesus. Woman, find a man that you can respect, and who will protect you. I want you to notice that i said find a " Man" or " Woman". This kind of a topic is not for boys and girls, but for Men and Woman. Tomorrow i will tell you the difference between both.
" Father, i pray today for my brothers and sisters who are single at the moment. I pray God that they will not be discouraged, but encouraged in waiting for someone that they love, and respect. God, help them not to settle for anything less: I know that you have intended something for them that they cannot even imagine yet...help them to trust you. Raise up Men who will protect women and their purity. Raise up Men who will respect the woman's body as sacred and fearfully wonderful. Raise up men who can be respected...powerful men who can control their passions until the right moment. Raise up women who will raise the standard...Woman who are worth fighting for. God, only in you can we discover what this looks like...may our eyes turn to you in this moment: In Jesus name we pray...Amen"
Genesis 2:24-25
"A man shall his mother and father and be united to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh".
This passage in the Bible makes something clear...Marriage is for Men, not boys. Marriage is for women, not girls.
I find it funny that many Men want to get married, but they continue to want to live a bachelor lifestyle. They go and hang out with their friends all hours of the night...play X-box or whatever for three hours a day...live with a bunch of guys, Work some low end job, spend whatever little money they have on nothing, etc...but they want to get married. Very few woman i know would be turned on by this kind of a man, and rightfully so. Even though i will be writing more on this topic in full in the next couple of weeks, i will open up with this:
1. A man shall leave his father and mother...
What this means men is that it is time to grow up. I believe that this calling comes on a man when he first begins to seriously think about " SEX". In our culture, we think about sex, then dating, then marriage. The reality is that Sex and marriage should go together in ones thoughts...not dating. The moment that you are starting to think about sex seriously, you are hearing the call of the wild...it is time to get ready and prepare yourself to welcome in a beautiful bride. It is time to leave the confines of Mom and Dad, or bachelor friends...and get a job, and save to get a dwelling place. It is time to stop acting like a kid...time to become a Man. Marriage is for Men, not boys...You want to get married...this is a good thing, Let's get moving. I also love this passage because it shows that it is the man who initiates all this. " A man shall leave..." Man is the initiator, not woman. Women get tired having to try and push the man into action. Ever wonder why women like the bad boys? Bad Boys are passionate...they move, they create. Unfortunately for Christians, we have a lack of passionate testosterone. MEN, GET A FREAKIN MOVE ON...stop putting pressure on woman to have to be the initiators, it is our responsibility.
Proverbs tells us that " he who "FINDS" a wife, has found a good thing, and obtained favor from the Lord". Men, once you move on out...it is time to be united with the one that you love, and if you happen to find that one...the Word of God tells us that it is a good thing...not that you are the good thing...like her savior or something, but that finding " HER" is a good thing. I find men that think that they are God's gift to women...scripture say's otherwise. Women are an amazing gift, and are to be treated as such. We are to always remember the high value of women in scripture, and i will deal with this value in the next blogs. Suffice it to say, Ladies you are precious. Every single one of you. God calls you as a gift to us men. You are to be cherished, admired, held in high esteem. Men, rise up to your calling, live it out, pursue with passion. Stop thinking about Sex apart from marriage. Sex is so sacred that it demands a lifetime commitment from a man for him to experience it's full benefits. Men that sleep around are lacking in that department of satisfaction for themselves, and the women they think they are pleasing ( more on this later also).
2. The second reason for singleness...Ladies, the reason that you may be single still is that you are waiting for boys to hit mental puberty....trust me on this, you want to wait for this to happen. Marriage is for Men, not little boys.
Men, you may be single simply because you enjoy haniging out with little boys who play with toys...your time will come...I hope!
Sorry for such a long post...i commend you married men for your commitments made...continue to pursue with passion. For you, men that are dating...prepare yourself...for you guys that are still playing around....grow up.
So if you are still single ladies...it could be because you are waiting for boys to hit puberty in their heads...guys, if you are still single, it could be because you enjoy hanging out with boys better than women...i hope your time will come!
I love you all, Sabo.
♥ Lauren. Pebbles.
Reasons for Singleness.
Valentines day is almost upon us, and i know that there will be people who are bummed because they have a gift that they do not desire known as " singleness".
I want to simply give you some encouragment from the bible as to why you are single...and i hope that it will give you hope and strength to wait and not compromise.
The Bible gives us several reasons for singleness. I want to focus on this one today: Eph 5:33 So again I say, each man must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband."
The first reason that you are single is this: You have not found the one that you love.
Many guys come to me and tell me that they want a wife. My response is...no, you need to be in love first. But before you fall in love, you need to discover what true love really is. The bookof ephesians tells us that a man must love his wife as Christ loves the church...how will a man know how to love if he is not looking to Christ as his example?
Ladies, Sisters...i would encourage you to find a man that loves God...because only God can teach a man how to love you as he does. Jesus came and died to give us what our greatest need is, and continues to do what is best for us. Men, you will know when you are in love, when you are willing to do what is best for the woman regardless of what your needs are at that moment.
From a Christian perspective it is this: You are with your woman, and she is looking hot...you kiss her, and you get this funny feeling all over your body, but it is centralized in a certain area: Everything within you, and her looking at you tells you to go for it....BUT...you know that to take it any further would be damaging to her relationship with Christ, and Jesus tells us that it will lead to certain consequences down the road. What do you do? What have you done?
True love would say " Baby...ummmmm, yeah we gotta go. Everything within me wants this: But i know that this is not what you need, not now, but someday". True love always lays down what one wants, and gives what is best. This is what Jesus did. Men, we need to learn this. We need to stop putting pressure on a woman to say " NO", and allow her to be free with us knowing that we will protect their purity before Jesus. Ladies: Only a man that loves Jesus can do this. Be patient, he is out there.
Ladies, in the same way, the bible tells us that a wife must respect her husband. Many ladies come to me and tell me: " I love him"...yes, i am sure you do, but do you respect him???? Is he a respectable guy? Would you be able to share fully what he tells you, does for you, etc??? Or is there some shameful things that he has led you to do that you would not dare share? Do you respect him to the point where you can share openly with your parents everything about your relationship? Do you respect him? Does God respect him?
It is worth the wait for such a person. Men, fall in love first. Find a woman who will is in submission to Jesus. Woman, find a man that you can respect, and who will protect you. I want you to notice that i said find a " Man" or " Woman". This kind of a topic is not for boys and girls, but for Men and Woman. Tomorrow i will tell you the difference between both.
" Father, i pray today for my brothers and sisters who are single at the moment. I pray God that they will not be discouraged, but encouraged in waiting for someone that they love, and respect. God, help them not to settle for anything less: I know that you have intended something for them that they cannot even imagine yet...help them to trust you. Raise up Men who will protect women and their purity. Raise up Men who will respect the woman's body as sacred and fearfully wonderful. Raise up men who can be respected...powerful men who can control their passions until the right moment. Raise up women who will raise the standard...Woman who are worth fighting for. God, only in you can we discover what this looks like...may our eyes turn to you in this moment: In Jesus name we pray...Amen"
Genesis 2:24-25
"A man shall his mother and father and be united to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh".
This passage in the Bible makes something clear...Marriage is for Men, not boys. Marriage is for women, not girls.
I find it funny that many Men want to get married, but they continue to want to live a bachelor lifestyle. They go and hang out with their friends all hours of the night...play X-box or whatever for three hours a day...live with a bunch of guys, Work some low end job, spend whatever little money they have on nothing, etc...but they want to get married. Very few woman i know would be turned on by this kind of a man, and rightfully so. Even though i will be writing more on this topic in full in the next couple of weeks, i will open up with this:
1. A man shall leave his father and mother...
What this means men is that it is time to grow up. I believe that this calling comes on a man when he first begins to seriously think about " SEX". In our culture, we think about sex, then dating, then marriage. The reality is that Sex and marriage should go together in ones thoughts...not dating. The moment that you are starting to think about sex seriously, you are hearing the call of the wild...it is time to get ready and prepare yourself to welcome in a beautiful bride. It is time to leave the confines of Mom and Dad, or bachelor friends...and get a job, and save to get a dwelling place. It is time to stop acting like a kid...time to become a Man. Marriage is for Men, not boys...You want to get married...this is a good thing, Let's get moving. I also love this passage because it shows that it is the man who initiates all this. " A man shall leave..." Man is the initiator, not woman. Women get tired having to try and push the man into action. Ever wonder why women like the bad boys? Bad Boys are passionate...they move, they create. Unfortunately for Christians, we have a lack of passionate testosterone. MEN, GET A FREAKIN MOVE ON...stop putting pressure on woman to have to be the initiators, it is our responsibility.
Proverbs tells us that " he who "FINDS" a wife, has found a good thing, and obtained favor from the Lord". Men, once you move on out...it is time to be united with the one that you love, and if you happen to find that one...the Word of God tells us that it is a good thing...not that you are the good thing...like her savior or something, but that finding " HER" is a good thing. I find men that think that they are God's gift to women...scripture say's otherwise. Women are an amazing gift, and are to be treated as such. We are to always remember the high value of women in scripture, and i will deal with this value in the next blogs. Suffice it to say, Ladies you are precious. Every single one of you. God calls you as a gift to us men. You are to be cherished, admired, held in high esteem. Men, rise up to your calling, live it out, pursue with passion. Stop thinking about Sex apart from marriage. Sex is so sacred that it demands a lifetime commitment from a man for him to experience it's full benefits. Men that sleep around are lacking in that department of satisfaction for themselves, and the women they think they are pleasing ( more on this later also).
2. The second reason for singleness...Ladies, the reason that you may be single still is that you are waiting for boys to hit mental puberty....trust me on this, you want to wait for this to happen. Marriage is for Men, not little boys.
Men, you may be single simply because you enjoy haniging out with little boys who play with toys...your time will come...I hope!
Sorry for such a long post...i commend you married men for your commitments made...continue to pursue with passion. For you, men that are dating...prepare yourself...for you guys that are still playing around....grow up.
So if you are still single ladies...it could be because you are waiting for boys to hit puberty in their heads...guys, if you are still single, it could be because you enjoy hanging out with boys better than women...i hope your time will come!
I love you all, Sabo.
1.14.2007
on holiday in ft. lauderdale
I'm sitting in one of the guest rooms at my Aunt's house. My sister's across the hall and I should be sleeping by now. Today was exciting... after hanging out with Carole, my mom, grandma, and Dana yesterday I fell right asleep and got plenty of rest. So the plane wasn't too bad today. We flew into Miami, drove to Ft. Lauderdale, then went to eat. The food was good, service was bad, but we got to come home to homemade cake and Ben & Jerry's ice cream!! We finished the night with a riveting game of Truth or Crap and I lost horribly, so here I am trying to fix my iphoto before bed... with no success. Dink told me to buy at least one thing when I'm out shopping, so I will try to do that tomorrow! LoL. I am so glad we decided to come to Florida... I finally feel like I'm actually on vacation. It's amazing!
12.29.2006
new resolutions
1. New Year's resolutions?
make and keep-up a scrapbook of 2007, read my Bible daily, continue writing in my personal journal, read every book in my collection, plan a Spring Break trip to NY or Seattle, refrain from snacking between meals, and write cards and give them out to friends when they have birthdays.
2. Will you be looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?
I will not be looking. God will bring him when we're both ready.
3. New house?
not unless the whole sorority moves.
4. Will you be looking for a new job?
not new, but I will reapply to the YMCA summer camp and continue working at CYT.
5. What will you do different in 2007?
I will swing dance where ever I want once I turn 21.
6. What will you avoid in 2007?
I will make the conscious effort to have a positive attitude in everything I do AND say.
7. Any trips planned?
I am going to Las Vegas, but I hope to visit NY or Seattle.
8. Wedding plans?
not for me, but I'm hearing about more and more of my friends.
9. What's on your calendar?
school, church, work, birthdays, and sorority events.
10. What can you not wait for?
my 21st birthday in May!
11. What would you like to see happen different?
I would like to see closer relationships with friends and a better attitude throughout the year.
12. What about yourself will you be changing?
I will change as God reveals changes needed.
13. What happened in 2006 that you didn't think would ever happen?
I joined a sorority.
14. Will you tell the one you love how you feel?
I tell my friends and family as much as I can.
15. Will you dress differently this year than you did in 2006?
I'll probably get more clothes.
16. Will you start or quit drinking?
legally, I could start again but I won't.
18. Will you do charity work?
yes.
19. Will you go to bars?
in the spirit of my 21st, I may.
20. Will you be nice to people you don't know?
always.
21. Do you expect 2007 to be a good year for you?
if it's God will.
22. How much did you change from this time last year till now?
a ton... going to church again, stopped drinking after a year of it, moved out of the dorms, and much more.
23. Do you plan on having a child?
in 2007, NO.
24. Will you still be friends with the same people you are friends with now?
hope so.
25. Major lifestyle changes?
not really.
26. Will you be moving?
probably move rooms.
27. What will you make sure doesn't happen in 2007 that happened in 2006?
I will celebrate my birthday in a big way.
28. What are your New Years Eve plans?
not much, relaxing at home.
29. Will you have someone to kiss at midnight?
no.
30. Wish for 2007?
for God to lead every aspect of my life.
make and keep-up a scrapbook of 2007, read my Bible daily, continue writing in my personal journal, read every book in my collection, plan a Spring Break trip to NY or Seattle, refrain from snacking between meals, and write cards and give them out to friends when they have birthdays.
2. Will you be looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?
I will not be looking. God will bring him when we're both ready.
3. New house?
not unless the whole sorority moves.
4. Will you be looking for a new job?
not new, but I will reapply to the YMCA summer camp and continue working at CYT.
5. What will you do different in 2007?
I will swing dance where ever I want once I turn 21.
6. What will you avoid in 2007?
I will make the conscious effort to have a positive attitude in everything I do AND say.
7. Any trips planned?
I am going to Las Vegas, but I hope to visit NY or Seattle.
8. Wedding plans?
not for me, but I'm hearing about more and more of my friends.
9. What's on your calendar?
school, church, work, birthdays, and sorority events.
10. What can you not wait for?
my 21st birthday in May!
11. What would you like to see happen different?
I would like to see closer relationships with friends and a better attitude throughout the year.
12. What about yourself will you be changing?
I will change as God reveals changes needed.
13. What happened in 2006 that you didn't think would ever happen?
I joined a sorority.
14. Will you tell the one you love how you feel?
I tell my friends and family as much as I can.
15. Will you dress differently this year than you did in 2006?
I'll probably get more clothes.
16. Will you start or quit drinking?
legally, I could start again but I won't.
18. Will you do charity work?
yes.
19. Will you go to bars?
in the spirit of my 21st, I may.
20. Will you be nice to people you don't know?
always.
21. Do you expect 2007 to be a good year for you?
if it's God will.
22. How much did you change from this time last year till now?
a ton... going to church again, stopped drinking after a year of it, moved out of the dorms, and much more.
23. Do you plan on having a child?
in 2007, NO.
24. Will you still be friends with the same people you are friends with now?
hope so.
25. Major lifestyle changes?
not really.
26. Will you be moving?
probably move rooms.
27. What will you make sure doesn't happen in 2007 that happened in 2006?
I will celebrate my birthday in a big way.
28. What are your New Years Eve plans?
not much, relaxing at home.
29. Will you have someone to kiss at midnight?
no.
30. Wish for 2007?
for God to lead every aspect of my life.
12.28.2006
life quotes
"Knowledge speaks, but wisdom listens" (Jimi Hendrix, American musician).
"We are not human beings on a spiritual journey; we are spiritual beings on a human journey" (Stephen Covey, American leadership expert).
"Don't pray when it rains if you don't pray when the sun shines" (Leroy "Satchel" Paige, American baseball player).
"The fruit of silence is prayer, the fruit of prayer is faith, the fruit of faith is love, the fruit of love is service, the fruit of service is peace" (Mother Teresa, Indian missionary, humanitarian).
"We so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us" (Alexander Graham Bell, American inventor).
"We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us" (E.M Forster, British writer).
"There are only two ways of spreading light - to be the candle or the mirror that reflects it" (Edith Wharton, American writer).
"We are not human beings on a spiritual journey; we are spiritual beings on a human journey" (Stephen Covey, American leadership expert).
"Don't pray when it rains if you don't pray when the sun shines" (Leroy "Satchel" Paige, American baseball player).
"The fruit of silence is prayer, the fruit of prayer is faith, the fruit of faith is love, the fruit of love is service, the fruit of service is peace" (Mother Teresa, Indian missionary, humanitarian).
"We so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us" (Alexander Graham Bell, American inventor).
"We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us" (E.M Forster, British writer).
"There are only two ways of spreading light - to be the candle or the mirror that reflects it" (Edith Wharton, American writer).
12.27.2006
it's an addiction
1. Do you like to shop? Why or why not? yes, & WAY too much!!2. What was the last thing you purchased? candy for my family's Christmas gifts.
3. Do you prefer shopping online or at an actual store? Why? an actual store, so I can try the products out even if I don't buy them.
4. Did you get an allowance as a child? How much was it? yes, i got about $40 a month & I spent it on food & movies.
5. What was the last thing you regret purchasing? hm.. I like all of the shoes.. & purses.. so, the Mraz poster I bought?
6. Show some of your most recent buys: tickets to see Pursuit of Happyness, scrapbooking materials, a vegetarian meal at Pokez in downtown, a pair of fuzzy brown suede stiletto boots, & several meals at Burger King.
12.23.2006
almost twenty and one
1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy." - Matthew 5:7
2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
My pink and brown scarf
3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
"My Best Friend's Wedding"
4: What is the last film you saw?
Before this, The Pursuit of Happyness
5: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
The TV
6: When did you last step outside? and what were you doing?
Hours ago, for dinner
7: Before you read this survey, what did you look at?
My old websites from years ago (and deleted them all)
8: What are you wearing?:
Jeans, two shirts, a jacket, socks, and a blanket... It's cold!
9: Do you like to dance?
I love to swing dance
10: Did you dream last night? What about?
Yes, but I haven't a clue what about
11: What is on the walls of your room?
My old room: a tree that I painted; my new one: flowers and birds that the girls before painted
12: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
I usually hate reading but I've started reading the Bible on a regular basis and have a book lined up to read after I finish the one that I am reading right now.
13: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
New clothes, I'm sure
14: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
I doubt that I would change anything because it would probably lead to various outcomes that would be much worse
15: Would you ever consider living abroad?
Yes, most definitely!
10.24.2006
things to do
... in my lifetime:
1. graduate from SDSU
2. go to Disneyworld
3. go to a club in the US
4. get/buy my very own car
5. attend a concert of every genre
6. go to a film festival
7. participate in a food fight
8. visit all 50 states
9. stay in a cabin while it’s snowing outside
10. see the green flash (a flash that appears when the sun rises/sets)
11. go scuba diving in Maui
12. fall in love
13. get married (to the one I love, of course)
14. sing the national anthem for an important sports game
15. sing in a Broadway play
16. appear in a major motion picture
17. have my own television show
18. win a Tony, a Grammy, and/or an Oscar
19. eat at a family-ran authentic restaurant in Italy
20. shop and eat at a cafe in Paris
21. visit Greece
22. go to Norway see the northern lights
23. take a cruise
24. visit every continent (except for maybe Antarctica)
25. fly over fireworks
... during this school year:
1. set up plans and submit paperwork for study abroad
2. take the CBEST this semester
3. get better grades than any other college semester
4. make a difference in someone's life
5. show someone something they never knew about themselves
6. make a friend I never thought I'd have
7. spend time with friends that I may not see too often
8. strengthen bonds with my sorority sisters
9. find the best friend that I've been missing
10. continue to make changes to my room and expressing myself
11. smile for an entire day
12. throw a surprise party for someone
13. stay on top of projects and essays
14. finish and turn in every assignment for classes
15. say "YES" to everything for role in Meetings
16. stretch more often and get flexibility back
17. audition for Starlight
18. fall in love (I guess it's more like a dream, but whatev)
19. read my Bible and journal on a regular basis
20. serve my church more
21. help people I don't know when it may be hard
22. go to church AND sunday school each week
23. pray several times every day
24. complete everything on my list
25. continue adding things along the way
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Goals for today (Tuesday):
_x_ Read essays posted on Blackboard
_x_ Go to classes (ASL, lecture, and presentations)
_x_ Finish laundry
_x_ Begin RWS and Lib S essays
_x_ Write in my journal
_x_ Read in my Bible
Reminders for the week:
Don't eat when not hungrySet up second EFE
AGO Bible Study tomorrow nightGo to parents' house after Bible Study
Choreograph the Our Gang performance
Missing classes on Thursday
Timed writing on Friday
After Friday classes: work and showRemember to bring lyrics to work
Pledges' missionary on Saturday @ 10am
Potluck between shows on Saturday
Bring Taming a Liger to Flood Kids
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9.23.2006
the portrait of dorian gray
There are so many quotes from the Portrait of Dorian Gray that I just LOVE! I'm sat in suspense trying to finish the book because I simply could not stand the suspense of finishing... Just as I was getting into the story, I came across lines that I just couldn't ignore. Since I was right next to my computer, I wrote it down right away to remember it...
For a while at least.
I may open this letter several more times as I retrace the pages for lines that entranced me in my first reading. For now, that will have to do.
For a while at least.
"[...] women rule the world. I assure you we can't bear mediocrities. We women, as someone says, love with our ears, just as you men love with your eyes, if you ever love at all."
pp. 246
"To get back my youth, I would do anything in the world, except take exercise, get up early, or be respectable. Youth! There is nothing like it."
pp. 269-70
I may open this letter several more times as I retrace the pages for lines that entranced me in my first reading. For now, that will have to do.
♥ Lauren, Pebbles, Pebbz, PB
6.02.2006
summer, and then some...
I have a TON of things coming up that I'm extremely excited about! I will be working with the Flood Kids this Sunday morning and I may take over as the teacher after the summer (or so it looks right now). So, I get to work with the first and second graders as the teacher's assistant... I'm assuming, since I haven't heard exact details. This is something that I have been looking forward to doing for a while now and I can't wait to get in there!
One of these things is something that I have already begun. I was cast in the CCT musical, the Sound of Music, as a Novice Nun. We started the rehearsals two weeks ago and we already have a ton of music memorized. The amusing thing to me is that I had never seen the movie until last Sunday. I didn't realize how small my part as a nun was until I saw it but it's cool because I get to start out with less pressure. Now, I just have to make sure that I have everything that we've learned so far memorized! LoL.
I just got the call this morning that I got the job at YMCA Mission Valley. I will be working at the Toby Wells location with the Challenger program (6-7 year olds). I already know that I will be missing their very last week of camp, due to school, but I'm trying to find out if I will be able to join them after my classes on their last day possibly. In preparation for this, I have to take CPR training and get First Aid certified, as well as a Lifeguard certification. I also have three full days Camp Staff training, one of which I can't make all of because it's on Sunday. I won't be getting paid very much hourly but I will be working so much that I will make more with this job than I have any other summer! That's definitely a nice thought. So, I will use this as something to soothe me down from all my uncertainties about being outside, in the water, and playing sports. Have mercy!
The week after the YMCA camp ends (even though I won't be able to be there that last week, due to school), I start rehearsals for My Fair Lady! I will be in the Female Chorus and a Featured Dancer!! I'm actually really excited about doing this show, because I will get the chance to be in the show more and in a show that I like a LOT more! Opening night is October twentieth, so I will be in the middle of school the entire time, but I am going to work hard to ensure good grades for all of my classes.
A week after rehearsals for My fair Lady begin, I will start my Friday classes at SoCo CYT as the Our Gang teacher again. So, I will get to work with the 6 and 7 years olds again, and I can't wait to be able to work on dances and skits with them again. These two hour sessions will only be for ten weeks and I will have a good month to finish up school without any distractions. This is looking like an amazing year!
5.13.2006
twentieth
♥ Lauren
3.18.2006
the girls of ADX
Neophytes: Refounders
Alpha: Doughnut Class
Beta: Peanuts Class
Casey Jean "Schroeder" Pintaric Chan - Advisor
Gamma: Rebels
Delta: Rainbow Class
Epsilon: Sesame Street
Julianne Marie "Elmo" Morper (my great [x6] grand big)
Zeta: Mouseketeers
Eta: Pooh Corner
Theta: Muppets
Iota: Princess Class
Kappa: Flower Class
Kristin Leigh "Apple Blossom" Sauter (my great great grand big)
Lambda: Jamba Juice Class
Mu: Gem class
Melissa Eve "Sunstone" Travis
Kimberly Lynn "Ruby" Moran
Nu: Butterfly Class
Melissa Beth "Olympia Marble" Schwab (my grand big)
Christina Renee "Anise Swallow Tail" Nyberg
Lauren Cathryn "Juniper Hairstreak" Fraracci
Xi: Cookie Class
Dara Jean "Lemon Drop" Keesey
Dana Patricia "Aloha Chip" Conklin
Naomi Leigh "Thin Mint" Wiegand
Omicron: Breakfast Club
Jaqueline Marie "Kix" Lewis
Josie Serafina "Cheerios" Kelley
Heather Kaye "Honeycomb" Despol
Cristal Marie "Cinnamon Toast Crunch" Cicco
Pi: Las Vegas Class
Heather Maureen "Excalibur" Dresch
Emily Kate "Flamingo" Nickerson
Kamar Elyse "Venetian" Chafi
Christa Judith "Mirage" Aldama
Lindsay Mikel "Bellagio" Campbell
Heather Renee "Tropicana" Thornton
Candace Brittany "Luxor" Voget
Rho: Travel Class
Alison Lee "Monaco" Hunter
Sarah Ann Marie "Italy" Leahy (my big sis)
Sigma: Sports Car Class
Ginny Marie "Ferrari" Johnson
Mattie Caitlin "Porsche" Smith
Brittany Marie "Corvette" Clark
Lauren Anne "Mustang" Horwitz
Anna Marie "Maserati" Elder
Esther "Miata" Kim
Megan Margaret Theresa "Eclipse" Garcia
Cynthia Yvette "Jaguar" Hernandez
Melissa Mailan "Mercedes" Ermatinger
Johannah Marie "Avanti" Copeland
3.15.2006
this is the next generation
I've been watching Star Trek all day. I love Captain Picard and Lt. La Forge. They're the best! Hee. Alright, that's plenty nerd-talk for now: I realized that I haven't been updating this journal at all over the past month. So much has happened, which is partially the reason there hasn't been time to update. I have been pledging the Christian sorority, Alpha Delta Chi, for a month and a half now.
I love the girls that are a part of the organization and it has changed my life SO much already. I am beyond stoked to see all the great things that come out of this. As of recently, I am the only pledge and I will have to do things without the help of anyone but my big sis, Italy, and my grand big, Olympia Marble. I'm sure I'll be able to get some help from others as I go along, but I don't want to be too dependant on it, so I won't be dissappointed. As for now, I am just getting the memorization done that I still need to do and I am relaxing as much as possible before I go back to the stress of school.
Over the last weekend, I went with my mom to Hollywood, Santa Monica, and La Habra, for the Hart Competition. Music Machine, Sound Unlimited, and Main Attraction were simply amazing. I loved it. It was really nice to just spend some quality time with my mom and now, I'm spending this week hanging out with my dad at home. I hardly get to spend time with my parents anymore, so it's really comforting to get to be with them. Alright, mushy stuff is over and done with. I can't wait for my sister to meet the ADX girls. We might be able to go over to the sorority house tomorrow. Hopefully, I will get myself into gear and make my way over there tonight, even though Dana can't go tonight. I really want to start hanging out with the girls more.
God bless.
1.30.2006
pass the chronic
WHAT?!
-cles of Narnia!!
tis the season: Elle's Advice to Single Girls
1. Give thanks that you are single.
"Falling in love is sublime, and making a commitment can be profoundly satisfying. But even the best of relationships requires sacrifice - and being in a rotten one can suck all the sweetness out of life." What this boils down to is you're not in a bad relationship, which gives you a better chance for a "divine match."
2. If you build, he will come.
"Stop trying to make men like you. You can't do it." Make goals for yourself and your own life and work steadily towards all of them. "Spend your time making you like you." This may or may not make you "more attractive" to guys, but it will make you feel better about yourself and who you are without a guy.
3. Make peace with you cat-lady scenario.
"Instead of the tear-jerking house-dress-and-cats tragedy," think of the things you could do if you don't get married. You could "move to Paris," write a best-selling novel, or tour the world with a platinum album!! These are all things that are much more likely to happen only if you didn't get married.
4. Be scientific.
"Love is magical, it's a mystery, it's fate. Whatever [...] It's statistics. And the odds are overwhelmingly in your favor." Statistics show that a mere 12% of all women will never marry. Of these women, many are gay couples or couples simply cohabiting. "If a walk down the aisle is what you want, your number is coming up."
5. Embrace uncertainty.
"You don't have any idea whom you might love or who might love you. Stop being such a control freak." You cannot predict the future or control it by making lists of criteria that your "future husband" must live up to. So let loose, have fun, and let life happen to you!
6. The importance of being earnest.
"You will never die as a result of letting a man know how you feel about him." He may not say it back, or turned off, or plain mean... All of which are good things to know!! "Say what you want. There's no shame in wanting to love someone." On the other hand, if you find yourself pushing guys away, it's alright if you're not ready for "coupledom."
7. Get a boy friend.
"Even when a man isn't really attracted to a woman, he still wants to have sex with her." This is why it's a good idea to have a "single, straight, male friend [...] They can make you feel desirable without the actual mess and stress of casual sex." When they tell you that you're beautiful and you'll meet someone soon, "you can actually believe them because, well, they know what boys want."
1.22.2006
the abc's
Available: yes, I'm single and no, I'm busy reading for classes.
Best friend: Lauren, Mick, and Jeanele
Crush: I don't even know anymore... there was a boy named Ben at the party last night who was really cute though... It's easier to focus on the people I don't know.
Desire: to find a guy willing to call me his girlfriend, and treat me as that
Easiest boy to talk to: Mick
Favorite band: Matchbox Twenty
Gummy bears or gummy worms: those gummy Peachie Rings!!
Hometown: Bonita, CA
Instrument: Guitar, but I can't play anymore
Kids: I love them!!
Longest car ride: all of the trips to Arkansas when I was younger
Milk flavor: I don't drink milk
Number of siblings: one sister, Dana
One wish: to be happy
Phobias: solitude, falling, spiders, clowns, and dolls
Quote of the moment: "You may expel us, gentlemen, by your votes, today; but, while you do it, remember that there is a just God in Heaven, whose All-Seeing Eye beholds alike the acts of the oppressor and the oppressed, and who, despite the machinations [scemes] of the wicked, never fails to vindicate the cause of Justice, and the sanctity of His own handiwork." - Henry M. Turner (September 3, 1868)
Reason to smile: friends, family, and music
Song that you last heard: "A Summer in Ohio" - the Last Five Years
Time you woke up: I think I finally got up around 1pm... I wasn't feeling well
Unknown fact about me: I've never been in love
Vegetable you hate: onions
Worst habits: I'm a picky eater
X-rays you've had: who cares? Nothing critical
Yummy food: mashed potatoes and barbequed foods
Zodiac sign: taurus
Best friend: Lauren, Mick, and Jeanele
Crush: I don't even know anymore... there was a boy named Ben at the party last night who was really cute though... It's easier to focus on the people I don't know.
Desire: to find a guy willing to call me his girlfriend, and treat me as that
Easiest boy to talk to: Mick
Favorite band: Matchbox Twenty
Gummy bears or gummy worms: those gummy Peachie Rings!!
Hometown: Bonita, CA
Instrument: Guitar, but I can't play anymore
Kids: I love them!!
Longest car ride: all of the trips to Arkansas when I was younger
Milk flavor: I don't drink milk
Number of siblings: one sister, Dana
One wish: to be happy
Phobias: solitude, falling, spiders, clowns, and dolls
Quote of the moment: "You may expel us, gentlemen, by your votes, today; but, while you do it, remember that there is a just God in Heaven, whose All-Seeing Eye beholds alike the acts of the oppressor and the oppressed, and who, despite the machinations [scemes] of the wicked, never fails to vindicate the cause of Justice, and the sanctity of His own handiwork." - Henry M. Turner (September 3, 1868)
Reason to smile: friends, family, and music
Song that you last heard: "A Summer in Ohio" - the Last Five Years
Time you woke up: I think I finally got up around 1pm... I wasn't feeling well
Unknown fact about me: I've never been in love
Vegetable you hate: onions
Worst habits: I'm a picky eater
X-rays you've had: who cares? Nothing critical
Yummy food: mashed potatoes and barbequed foods
Zodiac sign: taurus
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