signing surprise

Surprise!, originally uploaded by Penelope's Loom.

I miss sign language and I hope I get to do it again. As for now, I just need to get through my required classes and hopefully, the opportunity will arise. I feel like I get the same amount of excitement from signing as this little girl does.

So allow me to SURPRISE you all and say...

I love you!, originally uploaded by tweaker73.

sleigh bells are ringing

candy canes, originally uploaded by SpacePotato.

I'm so glad I can just focus on the Christmas holiday!


YEAH!!

praise God

Day 9!, originally uploaded by .rach..

He got me through Finals.

I know that stressed more than was necessary, but I got through it and that's what matters. I just have to rewrite one more paper and get it in by noon tomorrow to raise a grade, but otherwise I'm done!! I'm so stoked. And I'm so TIRED! So I'm going to take a shower and pray that wakes me up. I want to just enjoy tonight. Man, Finals stink.

♥♥♥

date night

Candace at Lunch, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

The best thing about my finals week:

My date with Candace.


I had a few breakdowns today, but at least I got to spend time with my best friend one-on-one. I love when we're able to set aside time just for us. It's the best!

driven

2 goals for the last month of 2007: Tie loose ends and get organized.
- finish finals with the strength from GOD, because I don't have it
- finish the reading in my Year Bible so I can give it to my mom for the New Year
- go through apartment, finish unpacking, and put things in their place (including the pictures that still need hanging)
- set up my life calendar before the New Year

Goals for the year 2008:
- write down "intentions" for each week so I can work towards something worthwhile, rather than getting bogged down by the have-to's and should-do's
- keep Lauren sane for her wedding
- graduate

Hopes:
- that I might discover God's plan for me as a single woman
- that I am able to positively influence the lives of people I come into contact with

pit of the peach

James and the Giant Peach, originally uploaded by me.

Remember when homework was interesting, creative, and fun?
Remember when it was something you actually looked forward to?
Remember when all you had to show was the finishing product?

What happened to THAT?

I miss it.
I miss doing things like drawing and creating and playing...
... WITHOUT feeling guilty!!


Now, back to reality and writing papers for finals.

cold beer?

Cold Beer, originally uploaded by Beauty fer Ashes.

She isn't doing too much work
She's not too far along
She is however chatting up
A chum, a future beau?

chalk drawings

chalklove!, originally uploaded by becaboo.

I am run-down, anxious, sleep-deprived, and totally stoked on God! I spent a ton of time in my Bible and got to work with FloodKids twice. I have such a hard time seeing these things as opportunities as I'm doing them even though I know they are. I am excited to see the kids perform during service next week. At least at that time I should have my life back in order, or at least I hope! I cannot wait till finals are through!!

God, be my strength and my shield as I try to praise you with my diligence and hard work. Amen.

anxiety takes over

peace, originally uploaded by becaboo.

Have you ever felt so utterly consumed with anxiety that your heart literally beats out of your chest, your lungs feel tight, and your muscles tighten and twitch slightly. I feel that. I hate that feeling. The reason for the feeling is random and uncalled for so dwelling on it will only add to the foolishness.

So as I have been wanting to do for a long time, my plan is to lock myself in my room for a good while to just focus on God, His word, His love, His strength, His grace, and mostly importantly right now, His PEACE!

As they say, "No Jesus, no peace. Know Jesus, know peace."

flappers

flappers, originally uploaded by perkyNbLue.

Goal: to recreate this picture tonight!!

be still

, originally uploaded by lovegaby.

I am so excited about reading the books I bought today! I've turned into a total nerd and I'm not sure if I'm so ashamed of it... I'm in awe of God's amazing grace and love. I hope I am able to be still and listen to Him this weekend as I work towards the training for small group leaders this Sunday. I desperately want to continue to give back to my community in any way I can... I think Flood College is my chance to do so. I'm stoked and God's my rock!

serenity

yay i went to the beach!, originally uploaded by becaboo.

With haste I run from one thing to the next
All the while becoming more tired and perplexed
I reach for the tunnel's ending bright light
As the clock ticks down and day turns to night

One thing I'm forgetting, one thing I've been missing
I discovered suddenly as I began reminiscing
In the past, when I was feeling sad and alone
God was the one to bring me back home

He is the answer and the only true key
He knows what I want and who I need to be
With sincerity and love, He carries my load
As He directs my way along this serene road

(not my best, but the first version was deleted)

anxiously awaiting

Omaggio ad agedsenator, originally uploaded by danydrs72.

I have the computer show in the background...
And I should be getting the one in the foreground.
I simply cannot wait!

It WILL be amazing...

No rebuttal!!

sinking

|Into the Abyss|, originally uploaded by *JBR_JBR.

Overwhelmed
I'm sinking
I can but hardly breathe

Hands are shaking
My confidence fading
And I'm searching for the "out"

If you find it, let me know
I need a remedy quick
Sicknesses overwhelming me

One more assignment
A few more awkward moments
Until I may retire for the night

I'll be diligent
Get things done quick
Just to spend time with You...

I need You...
Just You.
Now.

my hope

Psalm 46:10, originally uploaded by lovegaby.

O, how I miss thee...

Let me count the ways!


Still doing the first Chem Lab that's due tomorrow.
I'd rather be conversing with God!

caffeinated study sesh

John 14:27, originally uploaded by i am a mermaid princess..

I thought this was extremely appropriate with finals just around the corner. I am already done with one of my classes and I have a few more assignments and exams for the others.
I really need to buckle down for Chemistry.

Things I still have left to do:
- - - Chem Lab 1 (monday night)
- - - Eng A Paper (wednesday afternoon)
- - - Eng W Final Paper (next wednesday morning)
- - - Eng A Final Exam (next wednesday afternoon)
- - - Chem Lab 2 (tuesday evening)
- - - Chem Extra Credit
- - - Chem Final Exam (next wednesday evening)
- - - Math Final Exam (next thursday afternoon)
- - - Eng A Paper Rewrite (by next friday afternoon)
He'll give me strength
He'll give me peace
He'll give me direction
He'll put all at ease
-- by photographer

my bleeding heart

Dicentra spectabilis, originally uploaded by ngawangchodron.

"It is at the edge of a petal that love waits."
- William Carlos Williams

---

I wore my heart on my sleeve
Can't remember where it all led me.
But I remember the breakups,
Make-ups,
The everywhere and in between.

I struggled to fall asleep some nights,
Trying to relive those moments.
But now I have found friends,
Hope,
And the Love I'll always need.

Guide my heart through these next few years,
As I see my friends become spouses.
Lead me to find my purpose,
Peace,
And patience, as I wait for the man of my dreams.

---

"Write it on your heart that every day is the best day of the year."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

elated erasers

LOL., originally uploaded by becaboo.

Today was a good day and it was a bit sad to say goodbye to the kidlets... However, I'm very glad that I am done waking up early to simply cook for and clean up after the lil' guys.

I've been feeling really inspired lately... I will hopefully be receiving the macBook for Christmas (and probably pay for part of it), and once I have it, I can upload my photos from my phone, to my computer, and to the internet. With that I might be able to start my own photo blogs! I love the photos I'm finding online in the meantime. On that note, I'm going to get back to it.

♥ Lauren

poopie-be-gone

So it's official. Tomorrow is my last day at the YMCA Preschool, and I'd be lying if I said that I was anything less than stoked!! I am glad I got the experience, but I'm even happier that I'm done. I look forward to more time with God, a more peaceful sleep, and way more time to connect with the people in my life! I'm excited for all the "Winter Break" brings: family, friends, and the holidays.

Time for bed.
I have to get up for work in the morning.


Peace.

the tree

Prayer from Flood:

Slow me down, Lord.
Ease the pounding of my heart by quieting of my mind.
Steady my hurried pace with a vision of the eternal reach of time.
Give me, amid the confusion of the day, the calmness of the everlasting hills.
Break the tension of my nerves and muscles with the soothing music of the singing streams that live in my memory.
Teach me the art of taking minute vacations--of slowing down to look at a flower, to chat with a friend, to pat a dog, to smile at a child, to read a few lines from a good book.
Slow me down, Lord, and inspire me to send my roots deep into the soil of life's enduring values, that I may grow toward my greater destiny.
Remind me each day that the race is not always to the swift; that there is more to life than increasing its speed.
Let me look upward to the towering oak and know that it grew great and strong because it grew slowly and well.

Colossians 2:6-7
"So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in Him, rooted and built up in Him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness."

late night/early morning coffee

Here's the dilemma:
I'm sitting in Lestat's with my best friend.
Slowly, I'm starting to get sleepy.
I don't know how much longer we will be out.
If I drink more caffeine now, I'll be up for a while longer.


Here's my decision:
Diet soda.


I am so glad that Lauren was able to come down from Fresno. I'm very glad that we got to just hang out and watch movies with Tommy. I am excited to see Veronica tomorrow. I look forward to my last theatre presentation on Tuesday... It's going to be stinkin' sweet!! I cannot wait for this stressful and busy semester to end! This is signing off for the night.

God is good.

my new love

This show is hilarious and oh-so-dramatic!! Love it.

eat pray love

he's so funny

I ♥ Pearl.

upside down

I am currently lying on my back, exhausted, drained, and slowly losing consciousness. While doing this, I thought, "why not write a blog upside down?" So that is what I'm doing. I'm writing. I'm upside down. I'm writing upside down. I know that it's nothing profound or all too logical but it appeases me for the time being... Until I need to get up to use the restroom. In which case, I would no longer be upside down. I guess that time is now. So, farewell gorgeous readers.


Genesis 1:26

spring break

I am incredibly blessed with amazing housemates!! I just spent the past two days with two of my housemates, Lux and Chicago. We wanted to get away for a real Spring Break rather than sitting around and doing the homework that is always assigned to ruin the holiday. So, we set out Friday afternoon to Whittier and dropped our stuff at my Aunt Ellen's house before going down to the swing club, Memories. We all took the lessons. While Chicago took the intro class, Lux and I headed up to the second floor and learned the Shim Sham. That was probably my third lesson ever and I enjoyed the fact that we learned something that I wouldn't normally pick up from following!

The dancing was amazing and I definitely went a bit overboard, dancing nearly every song. I could probably last longer if I knew how to pace myself. Until then, I will continue to lie awake the night of dizzy and nauseous. The next morning we got ready, read our Bibles, ate breakfast, and drove up to LA.

We walked around the Fashion District and Lux got a few things before my Big Sis drove down and met us for lunch. Lunch sucked. The food was decent but the service was awful so, we left there pretty fed up with the Fashion District and drove up to Beverly Hills to go to the Beverly Center mall. I got my Banquet dress and enjoyed the fact that there was some Sanrio inspired store there that had Hello Kitty guitars.

After the mall, we drove down to Huntington Beach and met up with Kyle, a friend from swing dancing. The five of us drove down to the pier and ate at Ruby's. The food was good and the service was as well... finally. Dinner was definitely a highlight with random topics, awkward comments, and memorable quotes. This was the perfect way to end the trip of the semester and I couldn't imagine the trip any other way!

Thanks to everyone who was a part of the trip, the fun, the drive, the exhaustion, the shopping, the laughs, the awkwardness, the dancing, the jokes, and the relationships created.

I love you guys.
You're amazing.

oh Jesus, take the wheel

I'm still in a state of disbelief. Last night, I went up to Irvine to dance at the Atomic Ballroom. I was extremely excited to go and confident that driving wouldn't be a problem. Upon getting there, I danced up a storm and didn't even leave until 2:30am. At that point, I was hungry but I was wide awake. When Kyle asked me if I was sure that I was good to drive home, I had no reason to say "no."

So, I got in my car and began to drive, got on the 405 and looked for the 5... Not realizing that they just merge, I call to confirm I was headed in the right direction and kept driving. Soon after that, I started to shiver and turned the heater on low, pointed away from my face... Bad idea. My eyes suddenly got heavy and I could hardly pay attention to the road.

What is my solution? Should I pull over to the side of the road? No, I didn't want to fall asleep on the side of the road and never wake up. Should I stop somewhere to get some caffeine? I would have if I had seen anything open at 2:30 - 3 in the morning!

So, I tried holding one eye open as I drove, which worked for the most part. Depth perception was shot, but otherwise I was able to drive smoothly. It wasn't until I began to shut my eyes without realizing it that it became a problem. Not realizing they were closed, I opened my eyes suddenly and swerved to miss the median I was about 3 inches from. That woke me up, for the time being.

By the end of the drive, I can honestly say that I don't remember half of it... I know God had His hand on me last night and He was the one to keep me safe. Swerving across lanes and nearly crashing 5 times tells me that I am not going to drive anywhere alone unless I have somewhere to stay the night, so I can drive down in the morning.

I was stupid. God was incredibly merciful. I'm forever grateful!

reasons for singleness (happy valentine's day)

Kelsey passed this on because she thought it was good... and she was right. I obviously didn't write it, but I think you should all read it. I love you all and I hope those who are single (or in a relationship, for that matter) will take all of this into consideration while awaiting Valentine's Day. Again, I did not write the following excerpt but I think it's great that anyone is taking the time to address a huge portion of the population... singleness. Read this either way: single, taken, guy, or girl. I love you all and I pray that God blesses your days ahead!!

♥ Lauren. Pebbles.



Reasons for Singleness.


Valentines day is almost upon us, and i know that there will be people who are bummed because they have a gift that they do not desire known as " singleness".
I want to simply give you some encouragment from the bible as to why you are single...and i hope that it will give you hope and strength to wait and not compromise.

The Bible gives us several reasons for singleness. I want to focus on this one today: Eph 5:33 So again I say, each man must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband."

The first reason that you are single is this: You have not found the one that you love.

Many guys come to me and tell me that they want a wife. My response is...no, you need to be in love first. But before you fall in love, you need to discover what true love really is. The bookof ephesians tells us that a man must love his wife as Christ loves the church...how will a man know how to love if he is not looking to Christ as his example?
Ladies, Sisters...i would encourage you to find a man that loves God...because only God can teach a man how to love you as he does. Jesus came and died to give us what our greatest need is, and continues to do what is best for us. Men, you will know when you are in love, when you are willing to do what is best for the woman regardless of what your needs are at that moment.
From a Christian perspective it is this: You are with your woman, and she is looking hot...you kiss her, and you get this funny feeling all over your body, but it is centralized in a certain area: Everything within you, and her looking at you tells you to go for it....BUT...you know that to take it any further would be damaging to her relationship with Christ, and Jesus tells us that it will lead to certain consequences down the road. What do you do? What have you done?
True love would say " Baby...ummmmm, yeah we gotta go. Everything within me wants this: But i know that this is not what you need, not now, but someday". True love always lays down what one wants, and gives what is best. This is what Jesus did. Men, we need to learn this. We need to stop putting pressure on a woman to say " NO", and allow her to be free with us knowing that we will protect their purity before Jesus. Ladies: Only a man that loves Jesus can do this. Be patient, he is out there.

Ladies, in the same way, the bible tells us that a wife must respect her husband. Many ladies come to me and tell me: " I love him"...yes, i am sure you do, but do you respect him???? Is he a respectable guy? Would you be able to share fully what he tells you, does for you, etc??? Or is there some shameful things that he has led you to do that you would not dare share? Do you respect him to the point where you can share openly with your parents everything about your relationship? Do you respect him? Does God respect him?
It is worth the wait for such a person. Men, fall in love first. Find a woman who will is in submission to Jesus. Woman, find a man that you can respect, and who will protect you. I want you to notice that i said find a " Man" or " Woman". This kind of a topic is not for boys and girls, but for Men and Woman. Tomorrow i will tell you the difference between both.

" Father, i pray today for my brothers and sisters who are single at the moment. I pray God that they will not be discouraged, but encouraged in waiting for someone that they love, and respect. God, help them not to settle for anything less: I know that you have intended something for them that they cannot even imagine yet...help them to trust you. Raise up Men who will protect women and their purity. Raise up Men who will respect the woman's body as sacred and fearfully wonderful. Raise up men who can be respected...powerful men who can control their passions until the right moment. Raise up women who will raise the standard...Woman who are worth fighting for. God, only in you can we discover what this looks like...may our eyes turn to you in this moment: In Jesus name we pray...Amen"

Genesis 2:24-25
"A man shall his mother and father and be united to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh".

This passage in the Bible makes something clear...Marriage is for Men, not boys. Marriage is for women, not girls.

I find it funny that many Men want to get married, but they continue to want to live a bachelor lifestyle. They go and hang out with their friends all hours of the night...play X-box or whatever for three hours a day...live with a bunch of guys, Work some low end job, spend whatever little money they have on nothing, etc...but they want to get married. Very few woman i know would be turned on by this kind of a man, and rightfully so. Even though i will be writing more on this topic in full in the next couple of weeks, i will open up with this:

1. A man shall leave his father and mother...
What this means men is that it is time to grow up. I believe that this calling comes on a man when he first begins to seriously think about " SEX". In our culture, we think about sex, then dating, then marriage. The reality is that Sex and marriage should go together in ones thoughts...not dating. The moment that you are starting to think about sex seriously, you are hearing the call of the wild...it is time to get ready and prepare yourself to welcome in a beautiful bride. It is time to leave the confines of Mom and Dad, or bachelor friends...and get a job, and save to get a dwelling place. It is time to stop acting like a kid...time to become a Man. Marriage is for Men, not boys...You want to get married...this is a good thing, Let's get moving. I also love this passage because it shows that it is the man who initiates all this. " A man shall leave..." Man is the initiator, not woman. Women get tired having to try and push the man into action. Ever wonder why women like the bad boys? Bad Boys are passionate...they move, they create. Unfortunately for Christians, we have a lack of passionate testosterone. MEN, GET A FREAKIN MOVE ON...stop putting pressure on woman to have to be the initiators, it is our responsibility.
Proverbs tells us that " he who "FINDS" a wife, has found a good thing, and obtained favor from the Lord". Men, once you move on out...it is time to be united with the one that you love, and if you happen to find that one...the Word of God tells us that it is a good thing...not that you are the good thing...like her savior or something, but that finding " HER" is a good thing. I find men that think that they are God's gift to women...scripture say's otherwise. Women are an amazing gift, and are to be treated as such. We are to always remember the high value of women in scripture, and i will deal with this value in the next blogs. Suffice it to say, Ladies you are precious. Every single one of you. God calls you as a gift to us men. You are to be cherished, admired, held in high esteem. Men, rise up to your calling, live it out, pursue with passion. Stop thinking about Sex apart from marriage. Sex is so sacred that it demands a lifetime commitment from a man for him to experience it's full benefits. Men that sleep around are lacking in that department of satisfaction for themselves, and the women they think they are pleasing ( more on this later also).

2. The second reason for singleness...Ladies, the reason that you may be single still is that you are waiting for boys to hit mental puberty....trust me on this, you want to wait for this to happen. Marriage is for Men, not little boys.
Men, you may be single simply because you enjoy haniging out with little boys who play with toys...your time will come...I hope!

Sorry for such a long post...i commend you married men for your commitments made...continue to pursue with passion. For you, men that are dating...prepare yourself...for you guys that are still playing around....grow up.

So if you are still single ladies...it could be because you are waiting for boys to hit puberty in their heads...guys, if you are still single, it could be because you enjoy hanging out with boys better than women...i hope your time will come!

I love you all, Sabo.

on holiday in ft. lauderdale

I'm sitting in one of the guest rooms at my Aunt's house. My sister's across the hall and I should be sleeping by now. Today was exciting... after hanging out with Carole, my mom, grandma, and Dana yesterday I fell right asleep and got plenty of rest. So the plane wasn't too bad today. We flew into Miami, drove to Ft. Lauderdale, then went to eat. The food was good, service was bad, but we got to come home to homemade cake and Ben & Jerry's ice cream!! We finished the night with a riveting game of Truth or Crap and I lost horribly, so here I am trying to fix my iphoto before bed... with no success. Dink told me to buy at least one thing when I'm out shopping, so I will try to do that tomorrow! LoL. I am so glad we decided to come to Florida... I finally feel like I'm actually on vacation. It's amazing!

new resolutions

1. New Year's resolutions?
make and keep-up a scrapbook of 2007, read my Bible daily, continue writing in my personal journal, read every book in my collection, plan a Spring Break trip to NY or Seattle, refrain from snacking between meals, and write cards and give them out to friends when they have birthdays.

2. Will you be looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?
I will not be looking. God will bring him when we're both ready.

3. New house?
not unless the whole sorority moves.

4. Will you be looking for a new job?
not new, but I will reapply to the YMCA summer camp and continue working at CYT.

5. What will you do different in 2007?
I will swing dance where ever I want once I turn 21.

6. What will you avoid in 2007?
I will make the conscious effort to have a positive attitude in everything I do AND say.

7. Any trips planned?
I am going to Las Vegas, but I hope to visit NY or Seattle.

8. Wedding plans?
not for me, but I'm hearing about more and more of my friends.

9. What's on your calendar?
school, church, work, birthdays, and sorority events.

10. What can you not wait for?
my 21st birthday in May!

11. What would you like to see happen different?
I would like to see closer relationships with friends and a better attitude throughout the year.

12. What about yourself will you be changing?
I will change as God reveals changes needed.

13. What happened in 2006 that you didn't think would ever happen?
I joined a sorority.

14. Will you tell the one you love how you feel?
I tell my friends and family as much as I can.

15. Will you dress differently this year than you did in 2006?
I'll probably get more clothes.

16. Will you start or quit drinking?
legally, I could start again but I won't.

18. Will you do charity work?
yes.

19. Will you go to bars?
in the spirit of my 21st, I may.

20. Will you be nice to people you don't know?
always.

21. Do you expect 2007 to be a good year for you?
if it's God will.

22. How much did you change from this time last year till now?
a ton... going to church again, stopped drinking after a year of it, moved out of the dorms, and much more.

23. Do you plan on having a child?
in 2007, NO.

24. Will you still be friends with the same people you are friends with now?
hope so.

25. Major lifestyle changes?
not really.

26. Will you be moving?
probably move rooms.

27. What will you make sure doesn't happen in 2007 that happened in 2006?
I will celebrate my birthday in a big way.

28. What are your New Years Eve plans?
not much, relaxing at home.

29. Will you have someone to kiss at midnight?
no.

30. Wish for 2007?
for God to lead every aspect of my life.

life quotes

"Knowledge speaks, but wisdom listens" (Jimi Hendrix, American musician).

"We are not human beings on a spiritual journey; we are spiritual beings on a human journey" (Stephen Covey, American leadership expert).

"Don't pray when it rains if you don't pray when the sun shines" (Leroy "Satchel" Paige, American baseball player).

"The fruit of silence is prayer, the fruit of prayer is faith, the fruit of faith is love, the fruit of love is service, the fruit of service is peace" (Mother Teresa, Indian missionary, humanitarian).

"We so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us" (Alexander Graham Bell, American inventor).

"We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us" (E.M Forster, British writer).

"There are only two ways of spreading light - to be the candle or the mirror that reflects it" (Edith Wharton, American writer).

it's an addiction

1. Do you like to shop? Why or why not? yes, & WAY too much!!
2. What was the last thing you purchased? candy for my family's Christmas gifts.
3. Do you prefer shopping online or at an actual store? Why? an actual store, so I can try the products out even if I don't buy them.
4. Did you get an allowance as a child? How much was it? yes, i got about $40 a month & I spent it on food & movies.
5. What was the last thing you regret purchasing? hm.. I like all of the shoes.. & purses.. so, the Mraz poster I bought?
6. Show some of your most recent buys: tickets to see Pursuit of Happyness, scrapbooking materials, a vegetarian meal at Pokez in downtown, a pair of fuzzy brown suede stiletto boots, & several meals at Burger King.

almost twenty and one

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy." - Matthew 5:7

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
My pink and brown scarf

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
"My Best Friend's Wedding"

4: What is the last film you saw?
Before this, The Pursuit of Happyness

5: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
The TV

6: When did you last step outside? and what were you doing?
Hours ago, for dinner

7: Before you read this survey, what did you look at?
My old websites from years ago (and deleted them all)

8: What are you wearing?:
Jeans, two shirts, a jacket, socks, and a blanket... It's cold!

9: Do you like to dance?
I love to swing dance

10: Did you dream last night? What about?
Yes, but I haven't a clue what about

11: What is on the walls of your room?
My old room: a tree that I painted; my new one: flowers and birds that the girls before painted

12: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
I usually hate reading but I've started reading the Bible on a regular basis and have a book lined up to read after I finish the one that I am reading right now.

13: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
New clothes, I'm sure

14: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
I doubt that I would change anything because it would probably lead to various outcomes that would be much worse

15: Would you ever consider living abroad?
Yes, most definitely!

things to do

<sup>... in my lifetime:
1. graduate from SDSU
2. go to Disneyworld
3. go to a club in the US
4. get/buy my very own car
5. attend a concert of every genre
6. go to a film festival
7. participate in a food fight
8. visit all 50 states
9. stay in a cabin while it’s snowing outside
10. see the green flash (a flash that appears when the sun rises/sets)
11. go scuba diving in Maui
12. fall in love
13. get married (to the one I love, of course)
14. sing the national anthem for an important sports game
15. sing in a Broadway play
16. appear in a major motion picture
17. have my own television show
18. win a Tony, a Grammy, and/or an Oscar
19. eat at a family-ran authentic restaurant in Italy
20. shop and eat at a cafe in Paris
21. visit Greece
22. go to Norway see the northern lights
23. take a cruise
24. visit every continent (except for maybe Antarctica)
25. fly over fireworks</sup>

<sup>... during this school year:
1. set up plans and submit paperwork for study abroad
2. take the CBEST this semester
3. get better grades than any other college semester
4. make a difference in someone's life
5. show someone something they never knew about themselves
6. make a friend I never thought I'd have
7. spend time with friends that I may not see too often
8. strengthen bonds with my sorority sisters
9. find the best friend that I've been missing
10. continue to make changes to my room and expressing myself
11. smile for an entire day
12. throw a surprise party for someone
13. stay on top of projects and essays
14. finish and turn in every assignment for classes
15. say "YES" to everything for role in Meetings
16. stretch more often and get flexibility back
17. audition for Starlight
18. fall in love (I guess it's more like a dream, but whatev)
19. read my Bible and journal on a regular basis
20. serve my church more
21. help people I don't know when it may be hard
22. go to church AND sunday school each week
23. pray several times every day
24. complete everything on my list
25. continue adding things along the way</sup>

^{_______________________________________}
Goals for today (Tuesday):
_x_ Read essays posted on Blackboard
_x_ Go to classes (ASL, lecture, and presentations)
_x_ Finish laundry
_x_ Begin RWS and Lib S essays
_x_ Write in my journal
_x_ Read in my Bible

Reminders for the week:
Don't eat when not hungry
Set up second EFE
AGO Bible Study tomorrow night
Go to parents' house after Bible Study
Choreograph the Our Gang performance
Missing classes on Thursday
Timed writing on Friday
After Friday classes: work and show
Remember to bring lyrics to work
Pledges' missionary on Saturday @ 10am
Potluck between shows on Saturday
Bring Taming a Liger to Flood Kids
^{_______________________________________}

the portrait of dorian gray

There are so many quotes from the Portrait of Dorian Gray that I just LOVE! I'm sat in suspense trying to finish the book because I simply could not stand the suspense of finishing... Just as I was getting into the story, I came across lines that I just couldn't ignore. Since I was right next to my computer, I wrote it down right away to remember it...
For a while at least.

"[...] women rule the world. I assure you we can't bear mediocrities. We women, as someone says, love with our ears, just as you men love with your eyes, if you ever love at all."
pp. 246

"To get back my youth, I would do anything in the world, except take exercise, get up early, or be respectable. Youth! There is nothing like it."
pp. 269-70

I may open this letter several more times as I retrace the pages for lines that entranced me in my first reading. For now, that will have to do.

♥ Lauren, Pebbles, Pebbz, PB

summer, and then some...

I have a TON of things coming up that I'm extremely excited about! I will be working with the Flood Kids this Sunday morning and I may take over as the teacher after the summer (or so it looks right now). So, I get to work with the first and second graders as the teacher's assistant... I'm assuming, since I haven't heard exact details. This is something that I have been looking forward to doing for a while now and I can't wait to get in there!

One of these things is something that I have already begun. I was cast in the CCT musical, the Sound of Music, as a Novice Nun. We started the rehearsals two weeks ago and we already have a ton of music memorized. The amusing thing to me is that I had never seen the movie until last Sunday. I didn't realize how small my part as a nun was until I saw it but it's cool because I get to start out with less pressure. Now, I just have to make sure that I have everything that we've learned so far memorized! LoL.

I just got the call this morning that I got the job at YMCA Mission Valley. I will be working at the Toby Wells location with the Challenger program (6-7 year olds). I already know that I will be missing their very last week of camp, due to school, but I'm trying to find out if I will be able to join them after my classes on their last day possibly. In preparation for this, I have to take CPR training and get First Aid certified, as well as a Lifeguard certification. I also have three full days Camp Staff training, one of which I can't make all of because it's on Sunday. I won't be getting paid very much hourly but I will be working so much that I will make more with this job than I have any other summer! That's definitely a nice thought. So, I will use this as something to soothe me down from all my uncertainties about being outside, in the water, and playing sports. Have mercy!

The week after the YMCA camp ends (even though I won't be able to be there that last week, due to school), I start rehearsals for My Fair Lady! I will be in the Female Chorus and a Featured Dancer!! I'm actually really excited about doing this show, because I will get the chance to be in the show more and in a show that I like a LOT more! Opening night is October twentieth, so I will be in the middle of school the entire time, but I am going to work hard to ensure good grades for all of my classes.

A week after rehearsals for My fair Lady begin, I will start my Friday classes at SoCo CYT as the Our Gang teacher again. So, I will get to work with the 6 and 7 years olds again, and I can't wait to be able to work on dances and skits with them again. These two hour sessions will only be for ten weeks and I will have a good month to finish up school without any distractions. This is looking like an amazing year!

twentieth

JUST ONE MORE DAY.I am really looking forward to turning twenty years old... finally. As my twentieth year comes to a close, I can't help but feel relieved and anxious. In one sense, I will be able to say that I am no longer a teen. I am finally rid of the "teen" lable of "transition" and "change." A little recap of the teen years: 16: can drive a car. 17: can watch rated-R movies. 18: can be charged as an adult for crimes, but barely legal. 19: not an adult, but no longer "barely legal." Obviously, my life will not drastically change the second I turn twenty, but I have improved many aspects of my life leading up to this new chapter! I am working hard in classes, spending time doing things beneficial to my well-being, attending church again, reconnecting with Christians, performing off and ON stage, and trying my best to approach life with a positive attitude! I am not simply satisfied with the things that have changed in my life, rather I will continue to work hard and be strong enough in my faith to grow closer to God no matter what challenge I face. I hope to show the world the amazing love He has for each and every person of the World by demonstrating it in myself. I will never be perfect but with this foundation that grows stronger each day, I have a great place to start!

♥ Lauren

the girls of ADX

Neophytes: Refounders
Alpha: Doughnut Class
Beta: Peanuts Class
Casey Jean "Schroeder" Pintaric Chan - Advisor
Gamma: Rebels
Delta: Rainbow Class
Epsilon: Sesame Street
Julianne Marie "Elmo" Morper (my great [x6] grand big)
Zeta: Mouseketeers
Eta: Pooh Corner
Theta: Muppets
Iota: Princess Class
Kappa: Flower Class
Kristin Leigh "Apple Blossom" Sauter (my great great grand big)
Lambda: Jamba Juice Class
Mu: Gem class
Melissa Eve "Sunstone" Travis
Kimberly Lynn "Ruby" Moran
Nu: Butterfly Class
Melissa Beth "Olympia Marble" Schwab (my grand big)
Christina Renee "Anise Swallow Tail" Nyberg
Lauren Cathryn "Juniper Hairstreak" Fraracci
Xi: Cookie Class
Dara Jean "Lemon Drop" Keesey
Dana Patricia "Aloha Chip" Conklin
Naomi Leigh "Thin Mint" Wiegand
Omicron: Breakfast Club
Jaqueline Marie "Kix" Lewis
Josie Serafina "Cheerios" Kelley
Heather Kaye "Honeycomb" Despol
Cristal Marie "Cinnamon Toast Crunch" Cicco
Pi: Las Vegas Class
Heather Maureen "Excalibur" Dresch
Emily Kate "Flamingo" Nickerson
Kamar Elyse "Venetian" Chafi
Christa Judith "Mirage" Aldama
Lindsay Mikel "Bellagio" Campbell
Heather Renee "Tropicana" Thornton
Candace Brittany "Luxor" Voget
Rho: Travel Class
Alison Lee "Monaco" Hunter
Sarah Ann Marie "Italy" Leahy (my big sis)
Sigma: Sports Car Class
Ginny Marie "Ferrari" Johnson
Mattie Caitlin "Porsche" Smith
Brittany Marie "Corvette" Clark
Lauren Anne "Mustang" Horwitz
Anna Marie "Maserati" Elder
Esther "Miata" Kim
Megan Margaret Theresa "Eclipse" Garcia
Cynthia Yvette "Jaguar" Hernandez
Melissa Mailan "Mercedes" Ermatinger
Johannah Marie "Avanti" Copeland

this is the next generation

I've been watching Star Trek all day. I love Captain Picard and Lt. La Forge. They're the best! Hee. Alright, that's plenty nerd-talk for now: I realized that I haven't been updating this journal at all over the past month. So much has happened, which is partially the reason there hasn't been time to update. I have been pledging the Christian sorority, Alpha Delta Chi, for a month and a half now.

I love the girls that are a part of the organization and it has changed my life SO much already. I am beyond stoked to see all the great things that come out of this. As of recently, I am the only pledge and I will have to do things without the help of anyone but my big sis, Italy, and my grand big, Olympia Marble. I'm sure I'll be able to get some help from others as I go along, but I don't want to be too dependant on it, so I won't be dissappointed. As for now, I am just getting the memorization done that I still need to do and I am relaxing as much as possible before I go back to the stress of school.

Over the last weekend, I went with my mom to Hollywood, Santa Monica, and La Habra, for the Hart Competition. Music Machine, Sound Unlimited, and Main Attraction were simply amazing. I loved it. It was really nice to just spend some quality time with my mom and now, I'm spending this week hanging out with my dad at home. I hardly get to spend time with my parents anymore, so it's really comforting to get to be with them. Alright, mushy stuff is over and done with. I can't wait for my sister to meet the ADX girls. We might be able to go over to the sorority house tomorrow. Hopefully, I will get myself into gear and make my way over there tonight, even though Dana can't go tonight. I really want to start hanging out with the girls more.
God bless.

pass the chronic

WHAT?!

-cles of Narnia!!

^{tis the season:} Elle's Advice to Single Girls

1. Give thanks that you are single.
"Falling in love is sublime, and making a commitment can be profoundly satisfying. But even the best of relationships requires sacrifice - and being in a rotten one can suck all the sweetness out of life." What this boils down to is you're not in a bad relationship, which gives you a better chance for a "divine match."

2. If you build, he will come.
"Stop trying to make men like you. You can't do it." Make goals for yourself and your own life and work steadily towards all of them. "Spend your time making you like you." This may or may not make you "more attractive" to guys, but it will make you feel better about yourself and who you are without a guy.

3. Make peace with you cat-lady scenario.
"Instead of the tear-jerking house-dress-and-cats tragedy," think of the things you could do if you don't get married. You could "move to Paris," write a best-selling novel, or tour the world with a platinum album!! These are all things that are much more likely to happen only if you didn't get married.

4. Be scientific.
"Love is magical, it's a mystery, it's fate. Whatever [...] It's statistics. And the odds are overwhelmingly in your favor." Statistics show that a mere 12% of all women will never marry. Of these women, many are gay couples or couples simply cohabiting. "If a walk down the aisle is what you want, your number is coming up."

5. Embrace uncertainty.
"You don't have any idea whom you might love or who might love you. Stop being such a control freak." You cannot predict the future or control it by making lists of criteria that your "future husband" must live up to. So let loose, have fun, and let life happen to you!

6. The importance of being earnest.
"You will never die as a result of letting a man know how you feel about him." He may not say it back, or turned off, or plain mean... All of which are good things to know!! "Say what you want. There's no shame in wanting to love someone." On the other hand, if you find yourself pushing guys away, it's alright if you're not ready for "coupledom."

7. Get a boy friend.
"Even when a man isn't really attracted to a woman, he still wants to have sex with her." This is why it's a good idea to have a "single, straight, male friend [...] They can make you feel desirable without the actual mess and stress of casual sex." When they tell you that you're beautiful and you'll meet someone soon, "you can actually believe them because, well, they know what boys want."

the abc's

Available: yes, I'm single and no, I'm busy reading for classes.

Best friend: Lauren, Mick, and Jeanele

Crush: I don't even know anymore... there was a boy named Ben at the party last night who was really cute though... It's easier to focus on the people I don't know.

Desire: to find a guy willing to call me his girlfriend, and treat me as that

Easiest boy to talk to: Mick

Favorite band: Matchbox Twenty

Gummy bears or gummy worms: those gummy Peachie Rings!!

Hometown: Bonita, CA

Instrument: Guitar, but I can't play anymore

Kids: I love them!!

Longest car ride: all of the trips to Arkansas when I was younger

Milk flavor: I don't drink milk

Number of siblings: one sister, Dana

One wish: to be happy

Phobias: solitude, falling, spiders, clowns, and dolls

Quote of the moment: "You may expel us, gentlemen, by your votes, today; but, while you do it, remember that there is a just God in Heaven, whose All-Seeing Eye beholds alike the acts of the oppressor and the oppressed, and who, despite the machinations [scemes] of the wicked, never fails to vindicate the cause of Justice, and the sanctity of His own handiwork." - Henry M. Turner (September 3, 1868)

Reason to smile: friends, family, and music

Song that you last heard: "A Summer in Ohio" - the Last Five Years

Time you woke up: I think I finally got up around 1pm... I wasn't feeling well

Unknown fact about me: I've never been in love

Vegetable you hate: onions

Worst habits: I'm a picky eater

X-rays you've had: who cares? Nothing critical

Yummy food: mashed potatoes and barbequed foods

Zodiac sign: taurus

a is for apple

I'm currently at the Apple Store, using their internet connection, while my dad wanders around checks out all of the cool toys. LoL. I feel like a bit of a nerd for doing this, but I just don't feel like walking around at random. Some of the things that I still need to get from Apple are: scanner, iSight, and a speaker set for my iPod mini to sit in. The only thing that I really need is the scanner though. I have used the scanners of two or three different people in the dorm, just in the past semester! Kinda sad if you ask me.

Another thing that I've been talking to my dad about today is the cyber green convertible Voltzwagon bug. That car is just beautiful and I mentioned it to my dad about a month ago (maybe less). He informed me that the cyber green color may not be used anymore in VW's because this year's new cars didn't include the color. Lame, I know, but I'll live. The weird thing to me was that he brought it up all on his own. Maybe he's actually thinking about what kinds of cars I like and might get. Woo hoo! However, he's totally ragging on me about the convertible thing... I know I probably won't use it too much, since I hate the sun and all, but the two-tone look with the cyber green and black looks awesome! Hee.

Okay, I feel like an über dork now, so I'm going to end this and maybe wander around a bit. It'll be good for me and since my dad has already lined up two buys so far, I had better keep a watch on him. He might just buy the whole store if he's left here long enough. Signing out.

♥ Lauren ...

annoyed

I'm done trying to stay in touch with people who just don't care. There is one person in particular, who has just been extremely aloof and never seems to actually care... that is what's really getting to me. I cried on his shoulder and thought he actually cared about how I was doing. I was wrong, but I'm just going to do my best to get over it. I only have two or three more days until I'm back in the dorms, so I'm waiting to spend time with my friends on campus. I am actually looking forward to starting over with my roommates this semester. I'm going to approach it with a much better attitude and an optimistic outlook. I hope that I can be accomadating enough to them so I can receive the same from them. Moving on, wish me luck with registration tomorrow. I have been checking up on my classes on a regular basis and moving things around according to the open seats in the classes. I have given up on a LOT of classes and there are NO open seats in any of the Sign Language classes so I don't know how well I'm going to do. I am planning to crash three different sections of the class already. The first day of classes is just going to SUCK for me. I will be in classes from 10am till 5pm. Absolutely dreadful, I know. After I register for my classes, I'm going to go shopping and get out some of this frustration... Beauty and the Geek has helped already.

101 sexiest bodies

101. Paris Hilton (Herself on "The Simple Life")
100. Kim Cattrall (Samantha of "Sex in the City")
099. Jesse Metcalfe (John, the gardener, on "Desperate Housewives")
098. Jennifer Love Hewitt (Amanda in Can't Hardly Wait)
097. Gael García Bernal (Julio in Y Tu Mamá También)
096. Diane Lane (Constance in Unfaithful)
095. Ray Fiennes (Chris in Maid in Manhattan)
094. Emmanuelle Béart (Claire in Mission: Impossible)
093. Ashton Kutcher (Kelso of "That 70's Show")
092. Keira Knightly (Domino Harvey in Domino)
091. Gwen Stefani (Jean Harlow in The Aviator)
090. Sting (JD of Lock Stock and Two Smoking Barrels)
089. Lucy Lui (O-Ren Ishii of Kill Bill)
088. Johnny Depp (Willy Wonka of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory)
087. Jessica Biel (Mary in "7^th Heaven")
086. Seann William Scott (Stiftler of American Pie)
085. Bai Ling (Miss East in Wild Wild West)
084. Jude Law (Alfie of Alfie)
083. Madonna (Eva Perón of Evita)
082. Colin Farrell (Alevander of Alexander)
081. Catherine Zeta-Jones (Velma of Chicago)
080. George Clooney (Danny Ocean of Ocean's Eleven)
079. Natalie Portman (Padmé of Star Wars I, II, and III)
078. Matt Damon (Jason Borne of Borne Identity)
077. Vanessa Paradis (actress/singer wife of Johnny Depp)
076. Jason Scott Lee (Bruce Lee of Dragon: the Bruce Lee Story)
075. Jennifer Garner (Sydney of "Alias")
074. Shahrukh Khan (the Indian Tom Cruise)
073. Brooke Burke (host of "Rock Star: INXS")
072. Daniela Kosan (the first runner-up for Miss International 1998)
071. Ryan Phillipe (Sebastian of Cruel Intentions)
070. Cameron Diaz (Mary of There's Something About Mary)
069. Michelle Yeoh (Mameha of Memoirs of a Geisha)
068. Virginie Ledoyen (Françoise of The Beach)
067. Enrique Iglesias (singer, "Bailamos")
066. Jennifer Aniston (Rachel of "Friends")
065. Sabrina Ferilli (model)
064. Sienna Miller (Nikki of Alfie)
063. Kate Beckinsale (Anna of Van Helsing)
062. Hugh Jackman (Wolverine of X-Men)
061. Anna Kournikova (tennis superstar)
060. Tyra Banks (host of "America's Next Top Model")
059. Demi Moore (Madison Lee of Charlie's Angels: Full Throttle)
058. Mischa Barton (Marissa of "The OC")
057. Milla Jovovich (Alice of Resident Evil)
056. Paz Vega (Flor Moreno of Spanglish)
055. Jake Gyllenhaal (Donnie Darko of Donnie Darko)
054. Victoria Silvstedt (Playboy Model)
053. Benjamin Bratt (Eric Matthews of Miss Congeniality)
052. Sophie Marceau (Princess Isabelle of Braveheart)
051. Eric Bana (Bruce Banner of Hulk)
050. Carmen Electra (Sarina of Cheaper by the Dozen 2)
049. Ryan Reynolds (Chris Brander of Just Friends)
048. Paulino Rubio (Latin singer)
047. Rachel Weisz (Evelyn Carnahan of The Mummy)
046. Krista Allen (Jenna of "Baywatch")
045. Evangeline Lilly (Kate in "Lost")
044. Rosario Dawson (Mimi of Rent)
043. Pamela Anderson (C.J. of "Baywatch")
042. Matthew McConaughey (Ben of How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days)
041. Rebecca Romijn (Mystique of X-Men)
040. Nicole Kidman (Isabel Bigelow of Bewitched)
039. Djimon Hounsou (Cinque of Amistad)
038. Sofía Vergara (Cici of Chasing Papi)
037. Taye Diggs (Benjamin of Rent)
036. Kelly Monaco (Samantha McCall in "General Hospital")
035. Jenny McCarthy (Sarah Darling in Scream 3)
034. Valeria Mazza (Argetinian Cindy Crawford)
033. Justin Timberlake (of 'N Sync)
032. Gong Li (Hatsumomo of Memoirs of a Geisha)
031. Shakira (singer/dancer)
030. Eva Longoria (Gabrielle of "Desperate Housewives")
029. Laetitia Casta (French supermodel)
028. 50 Cent (rapper)
027. Elizabeth Hurley (The Devil in Bedazzled)
026. Christian Bale (Batman of Batman Begins)
025. Charlize Theron (Aileen of Monster)
024. Eduardo Verástegui (Thomas of Chasing Papi)
023. Kylie Minogue (singer and the Green Fairy of Moulin Rouge!)
022. Gisele Bündchen (supermodel and Vanessa in Taxi)
021. Jennifer Lopez (Charlie of Monster-in-Law)
020. Jessica Simpson (Daisy Duke of The Dukes of Hazzard)
019. Eva Mendes (Sarah of Hitch)
018. Chris Evans (Johnny Storm of Fantastic Four)
017. Zhang Jin Zha (Boss Orgami of Kill Bill: Vol. 1)
016. Usher (singer and Darrell of In the Mix)
015. Olivier Martinez (Paul Martel or Unfaithful)
014. Scarlett Johansson (Jordan 2 Delta of The Island)
013. Dieux Du Stade (rugby champion team from Paris, France)
012. Rodrigo Santoro (Karl in Love Actually)
011. Raoul Bova (Marcello of Under the Tuscan Sun)
010. Selma Hayek (Lola in After the Sunset)
009. David Beckham (soccer player)
008. Heidi Klum (supermodel)
007. Aishwarya Rai (Miss World 1994 and Bollywood icon)
006. Halle Berry (Catwoman of Catwoman)
005. Monica Bellucci (Magdalen in The Passion of the Christ)
004. Beyoncé Knowles (Foxxy Cleopatra of Austin Powers 3)

003. Jessica Alba (Nancy of Sin City)
002. Brad Pitt (John Smith of Mr. & Mrs. Smith)
001. Angelina Jolie (Jane Smith of Mr. & Mrs. Smith)

puppy fun

Check out these cute dog items!!
The first is just good for them...
The rest are über cute-sy! Hee.

They're a bit dorky, but I'd totally get 'em.

Doggie Dental

Cosmos for Dogs

Puppy Martini

Pooch Take-out

Fashion Possibilities

new year, new quiz

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Started swing dancing.

2. Did you keep your New Year`s resolutions & will you make more for next year?
I don't think I made any last year and my resolutions this year are in the previous post.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
This year... not that I know of.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Not close to me; someone close to my sister though.

5. What countries did you visit?
None.

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
A good job, more money, but mostly, a car.

7. What date(s) from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory & why?
May 14th, my birthday, because I went out swing dancing although it was in the middle of finals! I loved every second and luckily, my grades didn't suffer.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I got tons of A's this semester and didn't do too badly last semester either, but teaching my CYT kids last semester was great. They did an AMAZING job in their performance and I couldn't be prouder!

9. What was your biggest failure?
I got a D+ in geog and another low grade in natural science last semester.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nope.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
I got a television set for my room in the dorm.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Jeanele got accepted into Australia and although I'm going to miss her, I'm really proud.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled & depressed?
A few.

14. Where did most of your money go?
CYT and the television.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Seriously, getting my new television... It's a big deal for me. Oh, and I'm also stoked that I'm now a Junior!!

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
Um... Any swing dancing song, I suppose.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you wiser? Healthier? Richer?
I've learned a lot about myself and I'm doing better in school, so I guess I could say I am wiser. I have put on a few pounds, not many, and I'm still not excersizing, so I'm probably at the same health level. I feel like I have very little money, but accroding to the bills, I have more than last year. Still not rich at all.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Studying and spending time with good friends.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Stressing and spending time alone, but for now the alone time will have to do.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
With the family, I'm sure... just like every year.

22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
No, I've never fallen in love.

23. How many one-night stands?
None.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Desperate Housewives... but I have a lot of favorites!!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn`t hate this time last year?
Not hate...

26. What was the best book you read?
Maybe the script for The Colored Museum. It's hilarious.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I could sing on stage at a coffeehouse, but it's terrifying each time.

28. What did you want & get?
A dvd player.

29. What did you want & not get?
Lancôme Paris, Miracle fragrance.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Probably Rent and The Producers.

31. What did you do on your birthday & how old were you?
As I said earlier, I went swing dancing and turned 19, so it's 2-0 this year!!

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
I don't really have one, so that's why I have it as one of my resolutions this year.

34. What kept you sane?
Music... I need more of it.

35. Who did you miss?
I missed Lauren, as I do every year because she's at school in Fresno.

36. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005.
It's okay to depend on others, because that might be exactly what you need.

37. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"It's okay to cry. Forget I ever said it. Will you forgive me if I lie?"
"Something they never teach in school, how to get you!"
"I should stop trying to get someone that I'll only waste my time on."
-- -- -- "Kinda Like You" by Statia Conger (a local singer/songwriter)

resolutions

1 - Develop a style of my own.

2 - Read more books.

3 - Save up money for New York.

4 - Write in my blog more.

5 - Record my life in my journal regularly.

6 - Continue my cutdown on drinking.

7 - Allow myself to try at a real relationship.

8 - Stay away from smoking and drugs.

9 - Stop caring about what others might think.

10 - Get more control over my emotions.

christmas

the producers

I loved it on Broadway. It was one of the best shows on Broadway... AND I got to see it with the original two, Nathan Lane and Matthew Broderick!! It was exciting and hilarious and couldn't get enough. Now, the movie is coming out and I am nearly holding my breath waiting to see it.

With Rent coming to theatres less than a month ago, I feel spoiled with this sudden love for musical theatre in the movies! I am so glad that I have had the chance to see so many of these Broadway stories come to life on the screen. Chicago and the Phantom were, of course, different from the stage performances, but exciting none-the-less. I intend on purchasing each of these for my own collection of Broadway shows. Chicago, down. Many more to go!

merry christmas, me

I am thinking about buying myself an AIDS Bracelet for Christmas to support the cause. I've been wanting to get one for a while now. Jeanele has one and it would be within my budget to get the $25 bracelet. As long as the quality of that bracelet is good, then that is what I'm going to get. No matter how small an effort, it would still make a difference!

tinker bell

I saw The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe today and it was great! My dad and I went to see it on our day together. The kids in the movie were great and the CGI was perfect. Afterwards, we ate at California Pizza Kitchen, and I had my favorite, Spinach and Artichoke Dip with a BBQ Chicken Pizza and a Diet Coke. Mmm... We stopped by the Apple store and headed home. Since then, I did nothing but play online and watch tv, so I found a cute Disney site. At this Disney Fairies webpage, I figured out that I am most like Tinker Bell. She was the coolest thing to see at Disneyland... Tink flying past the castle in front of the fireworks.

I LOVED it!

kissables

Try 'em. They're good! Hee.

I saw the Junior Theatre production of A Charlie Brown Christmas today and it was great! I definitely recommend the show to anyone who loves the old comics or just wants to bring their kids to a fun show. Alright, I have plenty of studying left to do and a reflection paper to write, so have a nice night.

nostalgia

I don't want another
You see I am always waitin'
I'm hopelessly taken by you


Everybody cries
Everybody bleeds
No one ever
Said that life's
An easy thing
That's the beauty of it
When you lose your way
Close your eyes
'N' go to sleep
Wake up to
Another day


But I'm not going to wait when the moments vanish so fast
'Cuz every kiss is a kiss you can never take back

i'm just born to be bad

1. Have you ever been drunk? Yes.
2. How old were you the first time you got drunk? 18.
3. Have you ever gotten/given digits while intoxicated? Yes.
4. Have you ever 'drunk dialed'? Yes, I stopped doing it completely, till last weekend.
5. Have you ever been drunk in front of family members? No.
6. Have you ever had to cover up the fact that you were drunk? Just walking straight, but nothing big.
7. Have you ever been arrested for any alcohol related crime? No.
8. Have you ever hooked-up with someone while drunk? Kissed, yes.
9. Ever forgot their name? Yes.
10. When was the last time you were drunk? Last Friday was the second time in two months.
11. Have you ever been on a drunken binge? I don't think so.
12. Do you need alcohol to have a good time? No.
13. What kind of alcohol gets you the most intoxicated? Anything, I'm a light-weight.
14. Favorite liquor: Umm... Cosmos.
15. Favorite beer: None.
16. Have you ever woken up after a night of drinking and found out that you are STILL drunk? No.
17. Have you ever swam drunk? No.
18. What kind of a drunk are you? Happy every time but two.
19. Is alcohol like "truth serum" to you? Quite possibly, not too bad if so.
20. Favorite drinking partner: Lauren and any GOOD FRIENDS!!
21. Favorite bar: The Kava Lounge!! (I can't drink yet... but I work at the door)
22. Have you ever completely blacked out? Once.
23. Have you ever puked from drinking? 3 times.
24. Have you ever had the 'crying drunks'? Once, when I was completely stressed out.
25. Can you still do physical activity while intoxicated? I guess.
26. Have you ever gotten into a drunken fight? No.
27. Who is the most annoying drunk that you know? There are a few.
28. Who is the most flirtatious drunk? I'm pretty bad, when I'm having fun.
29. Do you have a drunken nickname? I don't think so.
30. Have you received a 'booty call'? Yeah, gross.
31. Ever fallen asleep next to the toilet? No.
32. Have you ever woken up with random cuts, scrapes, and bruises that you don't remember getting? I do when I'm sober, so nothing in particular.
33. Have you ever woken up next to someone you didn't know? No.
34. Have you ever been hit on by someone way older than you? Yes, I just try to politely change the subject.
35. What's the worst 'buzz kill'? Snobby girls.
36. Have you ever dated a bartender or bouncer? Yes.
37. Do you ever say to yourself, "Dang i need a drink"? Not anymore.
38. Do strangers ever buy you drinks? Yes.
39. Have you ever drank too much on a date? I don't drink on dates.
40. Is there anything that you refuse to drink? A lot of things!

i am just obsessed

There are 74 bands in this photo, and I am trying to find them all!!

[[click here for the link to the collage]]

Comment if you have any guesses.

1. Green Day
2. Black Crowes
3. Iron Maiden
4. Smashing Pumpkins
5. Guns N' Roses
6. Gorillaz
7. Whitesnake
8. The Rolling Stones
9. Radiohead
10. Scissor Sisters
11. Garbage
12. Talking Heads
13. B-52s
14. Hole
15. Black Flag
16. White Zombie
17. Dead Kennedys
18. The Pixies
19. Alice In Chains
20. U2
21. Matchbox Twenty
22. The Beach Boys
23. Blind Melon
24. 50 Cent
25. Sex Pistols
26. Queen
27. Korn
28. Red Hot Chili Peppers
29. Madonna
30. Eagles
31. The Doors
32. Prince
33. Eels
34. Seal
35. Go-Go's
36. Led Zeppelin
37. Cowboy Junkies
38. The Postal Service
39. Blur
40. The Lemonheads
41. Eminem
42. The Police
43. Dinosaur Jr
44. Phish
45. Spoon
46. Ratt
47. Jewel
48. Crowded House
49. Kiss
50. Blondie
51. Cypress Hill
52. Nine Inch Nails
53. White Stripes
54. Cornershop
55. The Carpenters
56. Bee Gees
57. Great White
58. Deep Purple
59. Pink
60. Pet Shop Boys
61. Yellowman
62. Cake
63. Scorpions
64. Cranberries
65. The Cars
66. The Roots
67. Pavement
68. Skinny Puppy
69. Twisted Sister

[[Above: the answers are right. Below: they are all guesses]]

70. The Manic Street Preachers
71. The Subway
72. Sex Shop
73. Bush
74. The Blues Brothers